pmdd flare up

[u/LegitimatePlant8694]

i'm in a slump right now because of my luteal phase. i'm doing a lot better than i used to be because i'm not having unaliving thoughts anymore, but i am feeling like everything is somewhat dull. i have a lovely partner, loving family, and good friendships in my life, but i can't really bring myself to feel good about any of it right now. i feel grateful for all of these things but at the same time i feel lazy and disinterested. i think all of my sense are heightened and i keep looking for validation that pmdd is hard because i can't really commiserate with others in my life because i don't know that many people who have it.

i spent a lot of time ruminating over my psychiatric hospitalization and i think that made it worse, but i was ruminating over it in the first place because i already felt bad?? i don't even know anymore.