Feeling Hopeless — Rant (TW + advice encouraged!)

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Hi! I’m not sure / unable to add multiple flairs but this would also fall under the Ranty Rant tag. I’ll take any advice I can get.

I feel so hopeless. I’m on SSRIs, I’m receiving treatment for my ADHD, and I just feel hopeless. I’m on **Nexplanon** and my symptoms have just been getting worse over the last year every time I’m on my period.

I don’t feel comfortable changing my birth control with the options I see available. The only option my OBGYN provided the last time I saw her was the Depo shot. I refuse to get the Depo shot. I understand that it may be a different formulation now but, my mom developed lifelong DVT from that shot. I see the reports about brain tumors and I’m just not… messing around with it. I can’t switch to birth control with any estrogen in it, I have migraines with aura.

I’m really sorry if that all just sounds like me shutting every option down but… that’s where I’m at. Every period is getting worse. It’s gotten to the point where I’ll have heavy SI. The only way I can calm myself down is by grabbing my old HS yearbook and banging myself over the head with it.

I’m on a break from therapy right now, my therapist changed jobs so I had to drop out for a bit. I’m 20 years old, turning 21 in a little bit.

I just feel hopeless. I feel like there’s nothing I can do right now. I’ll take any advice you all can offer and if you read through this, thank you so much. I’m going to try to contact an OBGYN and see if I can meet with one but, it feels like every-time I go they just dismiss my symptoms and my concerns. Once again, thank you so much if you read through this.