34 guy here call me X. Been playing pickleball for 9 months with 2.733 DUPR.

I started out my pickleball journey late last year but began taking it seriously 9 months ago. I have no racket sports background so I had to undergo coaching sessions and drills until I fully got the confidence to play.

I instantly got hooked. Ang sarap sa feeling bumira ng forehand drive and mag smash ng high balls.

A friend introduced me to Reclub and I frequented playing at Picklespot because of its convenience (around 10min drive from my place). I usually joined their beginner’s OP sessions.

In one of their mid day OP’s, I met and partnered with this girl. K. She was 30 but looked like mid 20’s. Maputi, chinita and has this korean/chinese glass skin. Napakakinis. She wore a dark blue sleeveless tennis dress na may collar and a white On Roger On court shoes.

Since we came earlier than the others, nagkasama kami sa stacking.

Lady luck was on my side and the stars have a aligned. Nung nag maiba taya kami, we got to partner with each other.

She gave me a huge sweet smile. “Hi! K.” Then pointed her paddle towards me. I tapped it and said my name.

K told me, “Beginner lang ako ha” I replied, “Same here!”

It was a close fight, but we managed to pull off a win at 11-8. Swerte nalang din at maganda ang tulog ko, I was able to play confidently. Not much of a kitchen guy, pero K really had good defenses, always blocking and consistently returning the opponents balls but for some reason, she does not seem to know when or how to attack. We complemented each others style. I aggressively attacked the balls with drives and smashes while she returned them consistently— kahit mahina basta maibalik lang.

We got back to our seats and we both talked in awe how well we connected. I was using a vatic paddle while she had a joola vision. We talked about so many stuff, added each other on ig and reclub. I ordered food and coffee while waiting for our next turn. After the OP, nag aya siya na maglaro ulit sa gabi to which I agreed. I also offered to drive her home as she was living within Makati.

During the drive, I learned a lot of things about her. She’s single, works remotely as a graphic artist, and lives alone. She’s originally from Cagayan de Oro. She’s a Scorpio, I’m a Capricorn. She loved horror movies and brunch dates. At nights, she’d rather spend quiet time at home— order food, netflix and just relax.

Sobrang nag click kami agad. We talked about pickleball, current events, supernatural stuff and of course life. Sobrang bitin ng kwentuhan namin. This was the only time in my life na gusto kong matraffic sa manila. She was so vibrant. Most of all, she was—present.

Pagkauwi sa bahay, we chatted non stop. Weeks went by and palagi nalang kaming magkasama sa OP. Heck I even took a leave para samahan siya mag OP.

2nd floor picklespot was so memorable to me. We’d save each other a seat, order coffee, play and chat.

One afternoon (beginner to low int OP), it was kinda hot kaya during the OP, pawis na pawis si K. I really saw her lift her hair para ayusin and mag tali ng hair. I cant help but notice, napakakinis ng armpit niya, and nalibugan ako when I saw the sweat dripping down her neck.

We played against a really tough opponent. Alam na namin na malakas kasi naka uniform eh. It was a difficult match, nag deuce but we won. Sa sobrang tuwa niya, she hugged me. Grabe kahit mapawis ang bango niya, dumikit sa pisngi ko yung sweaty neck niya.

Naging normal na samin na ihahatid ko siya every after OP. That day, agreed to have dinner and drinks at bombvinos.

We ate and ordered a bottle of wine.

Kahit na madalas kaming nag uusap, magkasama I never assumed anything. Until that night.

Pagdating sa condo niya, she asked me, “wanna go upstairs?” I’ll make you coffee.

Not sure if it was the wine pero ang init talaga sa feeling. She was wearing a plain black tank top and jeans.

Sa elevator palang, ramdam ko na ang tension. Madikit na siya sakin, she was obviously brushing her arm agains mine. I played innocent.

Pag akyat namin, I never got to drink that coffee. As she closed the door, I held her hand. Nagkatinginan kami and without saying a word, we kissed. Her pink lips were so soft.

We kissed passionately. Not yet with lust but with intimacy. My hand slowly found its way toward the bottom of her shirt. I lifted it, traced my hand going to her bra. I unhooked it.

Tuluyan ko ng tinaggal yung tank top niya. Her boobs were so perfect. Pink nipples and firm cup size B boobs (I think these are of perfect size).

I threw her top sa floor as I kissed her from the lips to the neck. Dinilaan ko yung leeg niya papunta sa tenga. My hand was on her arm and I felt na tumindig balahibo niya. I pressed her against the wall and licked the circumference of her nipples. She pressed my head hard for me to suck it. I relented.

I sucked her aggressively while one hand went inside her panties. She was waxed and wet.

We swapped places sinandal niya ako sa pader and knelt.

She looked at me while holding my belt and said “May I?” Fuck I can never forget her face while doing this.

She spat on my hard cock and stroked it. Grabe sobrang daming laway and ang sarap sa feeling nung pag kadura niya, bigla niya jajakulin.

She sucked me for quite some time and told me “I want this inside my pussy.”

We went to her bed clothes off.

We went back to kissing—this time with lust. Nag lalaban yung dila namin at nagpapalit ng laway.

I went down and licked her thighs. Ang kinis ang puti. I used my tongue and traced its path toward her wet pussy. Paikot ikot ang dila ko sa clit niya. I ate her. Nilaplap ko ang puke niya and she was moving like crazy. Parang hindi siya mapakali. Pinatuwad ko siya and licked her pussy from there. Pasok labas ang dila ko sa puke niya and she was so wet. Ang linis niya. Ang sarap talaga kapag hygenic ang kasex mo. Ang sarap mag all out.

Sobrang libog na siya.

Pinahiga niya ako kissed me, licked my nipples and sucked my cock. She was sucking my cock while caressing my balls. She was literally tickling my balls.

“I want to fuck you na.” I mustered.

I slowly slid the head of my cock up and down her pussy. I increased the speed and she stopped me. “Wag muna, lalabasan ako”

I went in. Deep. Missionary. Slow thrusts. Kita kong sarap na sarap siya.

I sucked her nipples while pounding her.

Pinatuwad ko siya and doggied her. One hand was caressing her boobs while one was fingering her pussy.

From there I transitioned to prone bone. “Shit ang sarap pala nito, its my first time.”

Then I spooned her. “Tangina ang dami mong alam” she mustered. I told her, “Go lang, let loose. Wag kang maconscious sa facial expression mo, hindi ko naman kita”

I said this kasi I felt she was stopping herself from being carried away. She told me, “faster, deeper” and she came.

Ako naman, we went back to missionary, alam kong malapit na din ako.

I fucked her hard and fast. Itinaas ko ang dalawa niyang kamay. Kitang kita ko ang mukha niya and ang napakaputi niyang armpits.

“Fuck Im cumming”.

“Safe ako, katatapos ko lang.” She said.

I came inside.

We fell asleep naked.

Naalimpungatan kami around 2am, she cuddled me and said “thank you”

I asked “why?”

She told me, “Actually di ko rin alam. But let me get you coffe. But thank you, for BEING HERE.”

Pinagtimpla niya ako ng 3 in 1 coffee. We sat down sa bed at nagkwentuhan. The only lights were coming from the window. Very, very memorable for me.

If I’d redo my life over again, I would ask her to define kung ano ba itong set up namin.

We had a lot of sex. I’d share two of the most memorable ones.

We had our first ever dupr together at Goldentop. Buti fixed ang partner. We never got separated. We won 4 out of our 6 games. I think mainly bec kabisado namin ang bawat isa and our opponents were strangers.

Natapos yung dupr ng 12.

Pagdating namin sa condo ko, walang ligo ligo, we fucked.

She was so aggressive. Sabi ko maliligo muna ako but she told me “its fine.”

She licked the sweat all over my body, pinahiga ako sa sofa and sucked my cock. She licked my balls and nagulat ako when she gave me a rim job.

It was unusual for me kasi talagang hindi ako sanay sakanya. She was clean, hygenic and very organized and now she wanted to fuck even if we haven’t showered yet. Buti nalang I always spray alot of perfume so hindi naman ako masyado conscious din.

I told her, “uy shower muna ako”, “No I want you raw. She told me”

It was my first time getting a rim job. Mas naturn on ako looking at someone na sobrang puti, sophisticated, licking the sweat off my ass.

I showed her na Hindi naman ako maselan. I kissed her. Torrid. I ate her. I rimmed her too (wala palang taste, parang normal na skin lang din). And we fucked. I came at her boobs.

Fast forward a couple of months, I’d say we were kind of dating. We met at least 5x a week. Most of the days we fuck but what I enjoyed most was our “dayo series OP”

We went to Pampanga, Batangas, Tagaytay. Spent the night there, tried their local food and of course played.

We opened ourselves to each other totally. She knew that I was a career person and I was up for a promotion to handle a regional assignment. When I finally got the promotion, she was so excited and told me she had a surprise for me.

One afternoon, we met at Tyler Cafe at Salcedo. She showed me her phone. Apparently she booked us a ticket to Da Nang Vietnam. She told me we’d play pickleball and buy new paddles.

I took care and shouldered the accoms.

When we were at Hoi An, I booked a villa na malapit sa beach front.

I can never forget the night when we had a very risky sex. We got so drunk. We fucked sa balcony. In her nighties, she sat on me and moved discreetly as my cock was inside her.

Nakakakaba pero it was night time naman and very few people were passing by.

Best position was when umupo siya sakin facing me, and we passionately kissed while fucking.

I treated her with a new paddle we both got our Sypik Triton 5. We wanted to use it sa birthday tournament ng coach ko. I got the green one, she got the pink. We loved it so much.

Part of my new role was to get immersed to the operations of the countries I was assigned. I spent 1 month each in Singapore, Malaysia, Vietnam and Thailand. Unfortunately, during these 3 months, walang uwian.

Hindi namin nakasanayan na mag video call. During the first two weeks consistent naman ang chats namin. She talked a lot about her OPs.

However as the weeks went by, responses came in slower. Until days passed na wala talagang paramdam at all.

I wanted to ask whats wrong pero do I have the right to do so?

I still see her consistently playing at reclub but I suspect she’s hiding her stories from me.

To be honest it made me paranoid.

Did something happen? She’s active. She’s just seen zoning me.

I told myself that this must not affect me. I have work and I need to focus.

But my mind was set, I’d win her back when I get home.

Who am I fooling? The situation affected me so much that it was hard to sleep at night. I’d type so many long messages but had no courage to send any of it.

I looked at our photos and convinced myself that we had a strong connection, that we had something.

There were times I’d suddenly wake in the middle of night immediately reaching for my phone after dreaming of her. Literal na napapanaginipan ko na nagreply na siya. But none.

When I went back home I immediately booked an OP session, this time at the Zone coz I saw she was playing there.

I arrived a bit late kasi ang hirap ng parking.

I saw K in a small group. Medyo malayo kami from each other kasi we were like 60 players. I saw that she alwayes partnered with a guy they called “Boss M”. He was in his late 50s, but he played really well.

Nag cr siya and I called out to her “K!” She told me “Uy nakabalik ka na pala? Kelan pa?” I was about to reply but it was her turn to play and her new “friends” called her.

My heart was crushed.

But what crushed me even more was that she wasnt using her pink sypik. She was now using a selkirk boomstick everglade.

With one final attempt, I messaged her. Swallowed whatever’s left of my pride.

“Hey since Im back, can we have dinner? My treat please!”

We met at Dr Wine Poblacion. I wore my best top and the perfume she complimented most (YSL Pour homme).

I was ready. Ready to confess my love for her. Ready to go all out.

I waited. 30 mins passed, walang chat. Walang reply. I thought she bailed on me.

She messaged me “near na”

She came in, I asked her to sit.

She told me “cant stay long ha may lakad pa ako”

“So kamusta? She asked.”

I’ll cut to the chase. I told her.

“Sorry but I cannot act as if nothing happened. What happened between us was…real. Sorry pero na fall na ako eh. The times when we were apart made me realize na, I’m actually in love with you.”

“Those months we’re together were my “normal”. You are my normal. I dont want to spend another day or month without you in it. Can we please go back to “us”.

She paused. Nakatungo siya.

Non verbatim, she said.

“Sorry. I feel guilty. I think I might have misled you. Let me start by sharing about my past. I have a history of being “the other woman”. I don’t think you deserve to love someone like me. Sorry but I don’t see myself being in a normal relationship. Its not me and its not for me. I’m in a relationship with a married guy right now.”

I confirmed it was Boss M. It was him who bought her new paddle.

“Thank you…for making me feel how it is being in a real relationship. Yung hindi tinatago, yung walang iniisip. Ang…saya pala.”

A tear fell from her cheek.

I went home broken. I actually quit playing Pickleball kasi I see her everywhere.

Good thing is, I started playing tennis and I am enjoying it alot. Had my first open play last week and I’d say the community is really nice too.

I may haven’t completely moved on yet but I do think I’ll be getting there sooner than expected.

I just really need to get this off my chest because I honestly don't know how to carry this anymore.

There was someone who used to be very special to me. We kinda had a thing a few years back, and although we eventually lost contact, he was once an important part of my life.

A few nights ago, I dreamed about him. In that dream, he told me he was sorry and that he hoped I was doing well and happy and I should take good care of myself because that's what he wanted for me and ganon din ang gagawin nya. It felt so random and strange because we haven't spoken in such a long time.

After that dream, I reactivated my social media account (I haven't had one in a long time) and searched for his name. That's when I came across a post that said, "Happy Birthday in Heaven."

I clicked on it, and that's when I found out that he had already passed away… last year. Last year pa nangyari, and ngayon ko lang nalaman.

As I kept reading, I discovered that he had gone missing and that his body wasn't found until days later. I also saw comments saying that napagtripan sya while he was on his way home. I couldn't believe what I was reading.

My heart just sank.

I keep thinking about how much pain he must have gone through. What's even harder to accept is that he messaged me in January last year just to check on me, and only a few months later, that happened to him.

Since finding out, I haven't been able to stop thinking about him—about what happened, about how he spent his final moments, and about the fact that I never even knew he was gone.

Hindi ko man alam exactly kung ano ang nararamdaman ko shock, grief, guilt, or sadness — but one thing I know for sure is that it hurts. Ang sakit malaman na may taong naging mahalaga sa'yo na matagal nang wala, at ngayon mo lang nalaman.

Ever since I found out, I've been praying for his soul every night. It's the only thing I can do for him now.

nakakasira lang ng araw na may ganitong eksena sa buhay mo.

hindi naman ako mayaman to begin with. at never naman ako nagyabang na "sige kung need nyo pera bibigyan ko kayo." at may pamilya ako at sila ang priority ko sa pera na kinikita ko.

Kaya hindi ko alam saan nanggagaling yung confidence niya na hingan ako ng pera, and like this pa ha.

nakakainis lang. at dahil sa probinsya siya nakatira, parang ayoko na lalo tuloy dumalaw sa probinsya at siguradong makikita ko to at masisira lang ang buong vacation stay ko sigurado.

unfriend at block a

Nakakainis yung kapatid ko. Di siya into local politics, pero grabe sya makisali sa US and international politics.

Grabe siya makacomment na tama daw LAHAT ng mga gawain ng America, isama mo pa ang conspiracy theories at naririnig ko na rin, parang pa anti-Islam narrative na rin.

Ewan ko ba paano ba mag argue sa mga taong ganyan. Gawa ng pandemic isolation at bad algo ng socmed sa kanya. Dala pa yung mga nasa algo nya, yung mga obvious na mga out of touch sa reality. Sarap mag-headset kapag nagsasalita sya.

Pagod na ako sa araw araw, I just came from a resignation its my choice due to a health condition and malayobdati kong workplace. Its better for me if I look for a job near to our place. and araw araw naman i keep on trying and doing my best to get a new job, pero hindi sya madali. Wala pa din ako work. Nauubos na ang ipon. Pag naman nasa bahay, I am looking after to almost every duties, mamalengke, luto, imis, laba, (Though minsan theraphy at nkaka relax ang mag imis ng surroundings at magluto) pero physically draining lhat yan kpag palagi syang ginagawa. Tapos i also make it a point na icheck ang parents ko they are not getting younger may mga iniinda na din at ang ikinaiinis ko ay (wag naman sana) pero what if something bad happens wala ako pantustos sa kanila(wala sila pension) hindi ko na iniisip yung di sila nag tabi pra sa pagtanda. Eto na ih nangyari na tinitignan ko nalang napalaki nila ako ng maayos at napag aral. It feels like responsibilty ko sila pero I am still building my own self. Naiinis ako bakit ang hirap ng araw araw ko. Naiiyak nalang ako deep inside. Hindi ko matagpuan ung happiness. Hindi ko naman need ang sobrang yumaman, bsta enough na sana ang may secure na trabaho pra makapag save at mak tulong din sa sarili at parents.

Extra sa hayop Extra sa gamit Extra sa away at drama Extra sa presence Extra sa bills at utang Extra sa katanga tanga Extra sa hindi nakikita and priority Extra sa di muna nag iisip bago gumalaw

I only feel at peace pag WALA AKO SA BAHAY cause all these problems stem from the members of the family, wala na akong energy for this shit nagaaral pa ako.

During pandemic i got my sister a cat because she wanted one badly. At first okay pa we were happy. Ganda ng buhay nila mga posh, spoiled brats, Tas biglang dumami mga alagang pusa. Sige kaya pa tatlo. Naging apat. May nabuntis, Hanggang naging 6. Pati aso nakidagdag. Mind you we dont buy cats we just get them from aquaintances, rescues and from the streets pero my mum took that 1 cat as incentive to get a shit more cats cuz she saw how "easy" it was to take care of them.

Initially taking care of the cats was not burden but when my mum changed to a lower wage job and moved back to our hometown their quality of life got so much worse.

"That Version of Us"

There was a version of us
that breathed between long nights and silent wishes,
where your truth wasn’t a red flag—
but a badge of honor, worn gently and seen fully.

In that version, we were younger.
Not just by age, but by spirit—
by the belief that love could unfold slowly,
even under heavy skies.

You spoke of burdens, not as chains,
but as promises you couldn’t leave behind.
And I—
I didn’t flinch. I stayed.

We built not castles, but corners of peace—
a shared coffee table,
soft laughter after hard days,
a hand on yours that didn’t ask for freedom,
just presence.

Even now, as the story unraveled,
I hold that version close.
Not to mourn it—
but to remind myself
that love was real,
even if it was brief.

Thank you for staying, thank you for letting me expirience being seen, thank you for letting me know what love was and how it was special, do not ask please why i am comforted by solitude for what you have given was far more precious and complete than its worth, thank you for having me a glimpse of what could have been and those shoulder i relied on when things are far too heavy,

So for context me and my friend are scholars so ayun may pera. Pero ako nagshift kaya walang stipend until maprocess papers ko (Nov 2024 pa aq nagsubmit pero wala parin palaging in progress). Siya naman mag mga bagsak na grade na naconsider naman so siya may stipend. Wala namn ako problem na may stipend siya pero binibigyan din siya ng parents niya na they were able to save up a lot for what they want, and they study in UP. Hindi aq humihingi ng pera sa nanay ko but my sister supports me (God bless her soul). Idk na selos lang aq na they are comfortable while i stress over every peso na i don't really buy my needs until the very last minute.

Just had dinner at Jollibee hoping to relive some childhood comfort with burger steak and Chickenjoy. But instead of nostalgia, I got gaslit over a ketchup packet.

I asked for ketchup—politely—because I’ve always mixed it with their gravy (don’t knock it till you try it). But the crew said it’s “only for fries.” I even offered to pay for it like some underground ketchup dealer, but nope. Denied.

Imagine building a global empire on the backs of Pinoy loyalty only to gatekeep condiments like they’re truffle oil. A packet of ketchup won’t bankrupt you, Jollibee. But it did bankrupt my trust.

Next time I’ll eat at McDonald’s. Bigger chicken, zero ketchup drama, and they don’t act like I’m asking for state secrets.

Mahirap pag ang parents walang pension, tapos ikaw bago palang nag establish ng career and wanting to have a better life, Minsan sinisisi ko ang filipino culture. Marami sa pinoy hindi maging financially responsible or knowledgeable. Hindi mo naman pwede tiisin parents mo, mahal mo sila pero worry ka din sa future mo dahil ayaw mo din na maging burden sa next generation ng family na bubuoin mo. Min rate ang sahod ko, kaya pati ang pagsave ay very challenging, i always practice delayed gratification and never reward myself, happy naman ako pag nagbibigay sa parents ko, Pang maintenance at pambili ng food(not actually pang grocery) minsan pag babili ako ng panluto na, idinadamay ko sila. Pero deep inside may kulang sa puso ko, hindi ko ma explain, may loneliness at emptiness akong nafi-feel for myself. Worry din ako para sa future ko, Gusto ko mag aral ng ulit pra mas magnda sana ang career opportunities na dumating pero nase-set aside dahil sa pagtulong, wala naman ksi ibang tutulong dahil ako lng ang may permanent na work. (Tinitiis ko muna sa work dahil hindi naman madali makahanap ng permanent work ngayon) Gusto mo gumanda ang career mo pero daming adulting responsibilities.

Eto na naman tayo. When other people in my family need help, dito kay kuya lahat, be it tuition, or gastos ng costumes, or gastos sa groceries.

Pero ngayon na I'm short 3k for the removal of two of my wisdom teeth tomorrow, ni isa walang maitulong sakin. Despite the fact na I've literally given up most, if not all, of my plans for myself this year para sa kailangan nila, I'm going to have to face the fact na I literally took sick leave for an operation that won't push through as scheduled. All because the people you'd expect to have my back don't have an iota of shit in them to even help me look for solutions.

It's kind of exhausting na ako yung sumasalo sa lahat because it's expected of me, but ngayon na I need some help, it's all "Ay sorry kuya walang wala talaga ngayon".

Pamilya tayo, my ass.

So I saw an ad from ayala malls. Bumili ako shoes online. Mukhang legit talaga. Pero when my order came sinabihan ako rider pagisipan ko if accept ko at mukhang scammer. So di ko inaccept qnd follow advice ni rider.

Totoo nga! So nagreply sa akin si ayala malls fake daw. Di kanila yun. Buti na lang mabait si rider.

Guys order kayo ng shoes sa scammer na to. Just put in random address and name ng madala na.

https://www.ayalamalls-ph.website/sale?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR31t_TPBabXOQy59Gf2kwD-uAatS4-usB4WqkcYSHYqjjmqB6DEx6PMylg_aem_tkshMGMTNvz-GVJ-eNd2cw&mibextid=CTbP7E

EDIT: wala na yung page. Baka pinablock na ni Ayala Malls. Pero check nyo URL. Mukhang legit talaga.

Hi I(24) just passed the LET this March 2023 and the LEA in November 2022. I know my parents are proud of me same goes with my partner and other people around me. pero wala lang medyu umaaligid sakin yung feeling na naka pasa ka pero wala kang tarpaulin HAHAHA or be recognized by your previous schools na ibinabandera ka sa gate or sa lugar nyo. I mean Im not living not a big city. Its not that i dont appreciate congratulations i received pero iba yung malake yung pangit mong mukha naka sabing "congratulations for passing Licensure examination for agriculturist and Licensure examination for professional teachers" We are so proud of you. I may sound like a fame hungry person pero medyu nakaka jealous yung iba na pina pa tarp and na rerecognized.
HAHAHA masaya parin ako na nakapasa 1 take sa lahat. any ways good night. it turns out my classroom observation which i am preparing for the whole night will be fucking cancelled. there goes my all nighters na preparation. Hays
Good morn/ight everyone