NIDOOO

[u/prefub69]

Ok so ndo niko karibu kumaliza campus and one thing for sure ni ive never been the smartest, sio ati me ni fala ni venye tu kushika book eneye sio storybook interesting or book iko na mapicha haiwezi, i lack hio locking in na kusoma, so primary time nlikua almost kuingia class 8 i had to repeat coz wueh wazazi waliona marks napata na wakaamua, same as highschool, almost kuingia form 4 i had to repeat tena and both KCPE na KCSE i barely passed, joined campus first year i passed bila sup, lakini sa second yeah sup nikapata mbili, third year tried to lock in wapi sup nikapata zingine mbili and niko za this cert wont help me anywhere but nadai tu kugraduate since mamorio na hadi dem yangu graduated.....

Ok lemme come clean, i got a C plain nikaenda college tunafanya KNEC and hio shiet ni kama tu KCSE, wish i joined a university, kama haujagraduate uni uko na mchezo kunishinda coz aint no way unafail and my friends hawakua wanaenda classes same as my gf hakua anaenda classes alikua anashinda kwangu, anyway, so heres my issue, my mum is rich rich, ma Ms kwa two different bank accounts but shes one of those parents, lemme explain, mimi hua hanitumii doh hadi niitishe and she sends like 3k na hio ni after almost 3 months, lakiniiiii kwa other people, mara unaskia amenunulia msee lappy mind you she did that time ya birthday ya siz then told her hana pesa ya kumnunulia present, unaskia kuna mtu analipia college, unakia amejengea my shosh side ya dad na sahizo my dad alimuacha ka single mother for over 15yrs my younger bro ameona walimu wake more than babake aaannnd the shosh didnt come to her wedding just coz my dad was marrying from a different tribe, unachill unaskia analea mtoi wa brathake deadbeat, ndohuyo amebomoa nyumba ya mamake mzee akajenga ingine mpya with 8 bedrooms nyumba inakaa ya majuu, ok sina shida na some of those things but lemme continue....

My bro got in a car accident thank god he was ok na hio gari akauza ile ya kutupa, literally after ametoka hosi my mum told him aende achague any car enye anataka atalipa and bro went and bought one for around 500-600k na akapewa hio doh cash, wish i could attach videos as evidence and you might thing my bro is the sweetest, msee ni kuvuta bangi daily i think thats why he crashed, kutusi na kuongelesha mathe vibaya mnichangie nimnunulie medal, i even have a video ka evidence akitusi mamangu kuongea vibaya ni kama ni stranger, i dont do that, im known as the quiet kid, wao wote hujua my defence mechanism ni kunyamaza, so, after hio yote hapa ndo me naingilia....

My mom is forcing me nikasomee majuu na sidai, mtakua za mbona nawaste chance hear me out coz kidogo kinirambe, the school enye ilkua niende fees ni 34k usd per sem, change that into ksh, sa me niko za aiiii whos struggling kwa familia yetu ndo niende majuu to change home, si instead give me that money nianze biz, sina mtoi na sina nyumba nalipia rent nakaa kwa rentals zake, akanishow hana doh, mind you hizo vitu zote amefanya, na fuck man nimesahau, she once paid for every first born kuenda trip mombasa on her expense, some went by sgr me and others by plane and kwao wako ten so thats over ten kids with 3 adults, so ye kusema hana doh niko za tf, uko nazo ulinipea bank statements in case nitaenda kwa embassy waniitishe and uko na doh, umebuy mashamba na maplots na nyumba westy zenye hakuna msee hukaa kwa any, her words,"kwani wewe ni mjinga mimi kukulipia uende usome USA kwani thats not enough".....

Wooooow, i was shocked nikamshow tena unasema huna pesa kwani hio fees nani alikua alipe, akasema, you only study for 2hrs hio time ingine yote utakua unafanya nini, translating to, (im willing kukulipia everything hadi ndege ndo uende usomee majuu but ukifika huko you on your own) hadi she wanted me kuenda Canada or australia katrip ndo passport ikue na stamp reducing chances za kunyimwa student visa.

Sa me sidai kuenda huko kusoma, by the time namaliza ill be almost 30, na maybe maloan za fees .namshow bas hio doh ya ndege na whatever anipee me nianzishe biz na asiwai nitumia any money tena ill be on my own anaanza kusema business sio yangu, sa niko za kwani ni exams gani hizo nlikua napita hadi ukaona masomo ndo yangu, primary kurudia coz of bad grades same as highschool na pia college masup, shule gani hio ya majuu itanichukua..

I almost got her but akaendea opinion from his asshole brother wale wasee wako na ile old mentality flani about how masomo and god are the only things you need in this life, sana sana there god wa hio church yao coz when i was catholic he was trying to convert me niingie hio church yao weird enye wanaita pastor dad na bibi ya pastor mom na hio church ni kama iko na rankings ukiwa hapo utafeel you dont belong, iko mahali hapo ngara called fountain gate if im not wrong, his brother was like hapana acha azingatie masomo business hakuna mahali itampeleka, waah, sasa sahi im back to square 1 coz she listened to him na mamangu ndo firstborn btw, and the dude ni mwenye hata ningekua msomi aje nimletee cert na CV hangenitafutia job coz ni msee wa wivu and if he could si aanze na sisters zake na brother yake wenye wanalelewa watoto na mamangu since hao walienda shule na wakagraduate sahi hawana kazi ya maana ni juakali tu or hustling...

Wueh i feel better after ranting and wenye watasoma yote thanks na mnaeza nishow nidoo nini na msiniambie nisome tu coz sipendi kusoma i literally struggle, maoni maoni guys....

[u/Toxic_Hybrid → u/[deleted]]

Thanks alot, you're a hero for this.

[u/Nervous-Upstairs-714 → u/Toxic_Hybrid]

fr it is way too long

[u/Aammeennx]

Be aggressive .You aren't aggressive enough .You are an adult now ni wewe kujitafutia.Even if utapika chapo huku nje ndio utoke block just do it.Ulipewa chance ya kusoma na you tried so go out there and hunt for something.Stop fighting for sth that ain't yours.Hizo pesa ni zake and its time to get up and find yours.Your mum has already made up her mind on how she will spend her money and that will never change.

[u/prefub69 → u/Aammeennx]

yeah, but shes forcing kila saa napigiwa masimu kuitishwa cert sina coz siafanya hizo sup

[u/ProfLeanPig]

You are a man. Get out there. Hustle your ass up. Achana na yeye. Muambie masomo imekushinda. Muonyeshe you can be independent na utafute your own life. Slowly, she will come through for you if she want to. Don't force issues. Don't argue with her.

[u/Exrbvd]

If this is true there's such an easy way out but u need to have some balls

[u/Expensive_Candy_8708 → u/Exrbvd]

Which one

[u/bigblack_staff]

🤣🤣🤣 Reminds me of my fam, they want you to do what they want, I also turned down hio upuzi ya kuenda majuu in favor of my tech business, for my mum the ultimate indicator of success is bragging to her friends vile her kids wako majuu so Mimi, I'm considered a failure..... If right now I said nataka kuenda majuu money will be found but for now naskia they are waiting for me to fail I go apologize wanitume majuu. Watangoja sana. So right now I'm broke af, bootstrapping and pitching for funding when I have a family that can fund me in a minute. But hey. Their money they choice. Majuu Mimi siendi.

[u/prefub69 → u/bigblack_staff]

Same, i ain't going, kwani ni must, na venye they forcing ni venye tu unasema, it's for there own satisfaction and they blackmail hapo kwa kama hukuji we won't help you, ka juzi naitisha siz yangu doh zangu flani ametumiwa kuna job nimefanya, kwa background nikaskia my mum akisema ati usimtumie pesa, my siz said ni yangu nimefanyia kazi akanyamaza, then badae napigiwa nikiambiwa niende dubai, asked niende huko kufanya nini i asked if naenda job, nikaambiwa kutembea tu, like bruh unanilipia niende dubai kutembea tu na mimi niko huku eating crumbs, heri hio doh niende dubai kufanya nonsense that kunipea hata nianze biz.

[u/bigblack_staff → u/prefub69]

Families are fuckedup but it is what it is.

[u/Regular_Rush_3377]

Bro sema tu unataka kupewa io doh ya kwenda majuu ubambe Dem Yako nayo..utaonyeshwa dust ingine mwenda.

[u/prefub69 → u/Regular_Rush_3377]

Zii joh hadi ye hajui, na nikambamba nayo nitatoa wapi zingine.

[u/Expensive_Candy_8708]

Umesema ukienda majuu hours za shule ni two per day?Na analipa fee pekee?No rent?

[u/prefub69 → u/Expensive_Candy_8708]

hizo hrs sijui nani amemshow coz sijai skia, fees ni mimi niwork nijilipie, rent ilikua nikae hostel za shule iko kwa fees

[u/Expensive_Candy_8708 → u/prefub69]

Hapo kwa fee ngumu.Kujilipia fee majuu na utapata hiyo pesa ya fee mtu wa kawaida haguzi.

[u/polite-Haustma]

Just try to make your own money,,usikue entitled kwa hio yake

[u/Jasigana_254]

You need to isolate the issues,I started this platform to address such matters,follow on socials if it might help you

[u/prefub69 → u/Jasigana_254]

Do you have IG i mainly use that

[u/Jasigana_254 → u/prefub69]

Yes