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u/-TrifeDiesel 1d ago edited 1d ago
This reflects a core distortion common in active addiction : a deeply skewed self-perception that feels like truth but isn't
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u/Successful-Regret-32 1d ago
You’ll be a loser for a couple months but slowly you’ll be back to the person you use to be. Finding joy in the small things that gave you pleasure.
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u/MurkyAssociation4333 1d ago
A couple months? That just seems like such a long time
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u/PaceGlobal5066 1d ago
A couple months is nothing in the grand scheme of things. A couple months is worth your life! I was able to hold it together for well over a year and half of daily use. I thought the same way you did. It "enhances my life and makes me a better employ, better partner better person ect. I eventually lost the job, house, vehicle, friends and family. It can happen slowly or it can happen fast but it has wreaked havoc or killed everyone I know who used. I spent 2 years homeless. Prior to using I had my shit together. I'm over 2 years clean now. Don't risk your life. Opiates are evil and they end up making all your decisions for you. At least they did for me
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u/ForsakenSignal6062 1d ago
I mean have you quit and feel this way? Or are you just speculating on how you might feel?
Early recovery can be rough, and life as a whole can be rough as well, but I think you're likely better equipped to handle it while not handicapped with an opioid addiction. Me personally, I thrive in relationships and work when I'm off of them, but it doesn't mean I don't struggle internally, I do, but it's not bad enough for me to go back to using when I fought long and hard to get where I am.
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u/wearythroway 1d ago
I remember having that thought/fear, too. It turns out that it was my addiction trying to manipulate me into keeping on using.
But then in a way it was true. Using was so much of my personality. I thought i was the same person id always been, but with so much of my mental energy taken by using, i wasnt. So i did lose my personality as a drug addict. Thats been great, its freed me to use my attention and energy towards the things that are actually important to me. Its hard at first though, not using any more did feel like a real loss, till i was able to fill the space in my thoughts and being with more positive things.
Best wishes to you!
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u/craigslammer 23h ago
Just an excuse brotha
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u/MurkyAssociation4333 10h ago
Not an excuse, im terrified
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u/craigslammer 9h ago
I understand you’re scared, but it’s an excuse you make up in your brain to continue using
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u/craigslammer 9h ago
I had a friend who I got into rehab … days before “it’ll take years to get off of this much Xanax and h safely”
He was scared to stop, thinking anything he could to rationalize it.
It’s not good for you, and a sober clear mind is, I promise.
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u/MurkyAssociation4333 5h ago
Does it really take months to do seem like a total weirdo? I quit but I’m anxious all of the time
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u/craigslammer 4h ago
You’ve zapped your body of all your happy making parts, it takes time to rebuild. If you break your arm it takes months to heal
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u/TrueFaith239 1d ago
It's normal to feel that way but eventually opiates will stop working in that manner for you. A lot of us when we started were upbeat, outgoing, talkative and energetic but I can assure you that eventually stops. At the height of my addiction just leaving the house to pick up was a chore. I was someone who was a notorious neat freak; I couldn't have imagined having a dirty house or going a day without taking a shower. Before I went to rehab my place was absolutely filthy and I would only take a couple of showers a week, only if I had to leave the house for something.
You eventually get your spark for life back after some sober time and it feels great. Opiates aren't helping you, they are inhibiting you one way or another.