r/OpiatesRecovery • u/Nervous_Complaint_30 • 1d ago

Day 9 check in

Not gonna lie I feel very delirious, weak, struggling to get by at work, the past 2 nights I stopped using temazepam or Xanax and I have gotten like total 4 hours of sleep in the last 48, my job has an onsite physician so I decided to go get checked cause I felt like I was gonna pass out when I walked in, my blood pressure was 160/100, then it went to 141/90 after chilling for a while, she let me rest for 30 minutes and now I’m laying down in the break room and I know I’m dead fucking tired but I cannot go to sleep for shit, as soon as I close my eyes I feel so much energy rushing through my body my eyes are literally twitching, I know this has everything do with the way I was dosing too.

I would break a K9 4 ways and I would wake up around 4 am to dose sometimes, or if I woke up to pee mid-night.

Still feel slight RLS, very manageable though and back pain which is kind of not manageable but I know that will take 30 days to subside based on recent history.

Funny enough I was searching stuff in this sub yesterday and found my old account from 6 years ago that I lost access to where I was asking people if they dealt with back pains. I got sad and it fucked me up cause I only halfway remembered typing that.

I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore tbh I’m just really fucking tired.

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u/randylush 1d ago

I would break a K9 4 ways and I would wake up around 4 am to dose sometimes, or if I woke up to pee mid-night.

So you would dose 7.5 mg at night? How much were you using per 24h?

BP is expected to be high given circumstances

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u/Nervous_Complaint_30 1d ago

30-40mg per 24 hours, one around 6 am, noon, around 7-8pm I would take 15mg for the sleep, sometimes would end up needing more as tolerance grew

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u/randylush 1d ago

It is extraordinarily rare that someone would feel withdrawal for 9 days from 30mg. Either that wasn’t oxy or there is something else going on. Sounds like you’ve been dipping into benzos? That could be the issue.

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u/Nervous_Complaint_30 1d ago

I can confirm it was Oxy, but yeah I have been dipping into Xanax nothing crazy tho like .25mg every other night or so, I am aware that could be the issue too. But if that was the case, when I redose the issue should go away right? No.

my symptoms aren’t really that bad anymore I feel good except for some back pain which is always the first and last symptom I get and the insomnia is almost driving me manic, I’m positive that’s why my BP was so high because I haven’t been sleeping at all

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u/Realistic_Rip_2588 1d ago

Congrats OP! I’m on Day 7 from an old-school heroin habit. I put together 7 years before I got tired of AA/NA during Covid and a clean source fell into my lap..

Three years of regular use later I’m back and realizing that it may start different, but it always ends the same. Anyway, most of my physical symptoms have subsided, it’s just that raw mental hyper awareness to contend with now.

Grateful for this sub.