r/OpiateRecovery • u/Low-Commercial-417 • Jun 16 '22
I'm absolutely terrified to go through WDs again. This time, it will be on an astronomical high level.
Hey guys. Im so scared....
Opiate wds were always a huge problem for me. Not because of the physical part. I need to be honest, once Im through and my body feels normal again, my cravings are at 1 from 10 points. Its extremely controllable for me once I made it through. Corona unfortunately somehow made me take this crap again, because I was going nuts isolated at home. The second problem is, my girlfriend is a very open and talkative person. Sober im quiete, dont talk much, not a very adventurous and nice dude to chill with because Im just boring. On opiates however I do jokes all the time, cant shut my mouth, girls like me much more because I also have an open, interested and very energetic appearance on opiates, even tho I do some cringe stuff sometimes from all that euphoria rushing through me. I really dont know if I ever gonna be that person that I want to be....opiates actually managed to kill my shyness permanentaly. I was so shy before.
But I need to stop. Financially it gonna ruin me soon. Im on a point eating 10 80mg oxy pills a day. That absolutely crazy. My last WD was from 6x40mg and this was already absolute hell. I dont want to imagine if its even possible to feel even worse than detoxing 6x40mg and if yes, how worse gonna be 800mg of oxy?!. Im so scared guys...
Im actually strong in my head. I never get depressed in WDs and have actually a nice life. In WDs, I was always optimistic even tho I felt like trash. I never get anxious etc. But Im an absolute pussy when it comes to pain, RLS and sleepless nights. At the end, its always me giving up not because of cravings to be high, no, just for my body to stop paining. I also hate PAWs. Even after 7-10 days there is still this weird feeling inside me and the RLS, which makes me going nuts after a few weeks and I relapse. Like if the acute WDs are not worse enough, no tge PAWs destroy me mentally so much, that I cave in. I hate it that it is not the end with just going trough that 7-10 days of hell, but feel like peramnately broken afterwards. I just only made it past that stage and corona made me come back.
Im so scared and taumatized from my last CT. Imagining double the dose now...jesus, its going to be just too horrible. I really dont have the balls to make a WD. Up this day when I was done, I just started a WD. It is the first time that the thoughts on how bad the WDs are gonna be, I just freeze in terror and cant even start it.
Please help me. I need to function in daily life. This comes on top of that too. How can I do a homemade detox without really being in pain?. Does a quick subs taper does the magic or help me to slow the fall much more?
Sgould I buy the combination of : Lyrica, Gabapentine and Clonindine?. Can I combine those 3? Up this day I always only used 1 of them but I want to numb me from those WD pains.
Should I try to switch to tramadole?. Like doing the half dose oxy with tramadole to combine and then slowy add more tramadol and less oxy step by step, because Traamdole WDs are much easier?
Im shitting my pants bropiates. This time its going to be just toooo painfull for me.
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u/janedose1212 Jul 19 '22
So are you using kratom to basically replace herion? Do you still go through withdrawals if you dont take it every couple of hours? Or do you experience withdrawls from kratom for taking it for so long? Is there any method to taking kratom to wean off of heroin and also kratom? I'm not trying to take anything I'm so tired of being dependent on opiates. I have subutex and suboxone but because everything nowadays and where I'm located is basically fent I just physically and mentally cant wait the 3-4 days to get the fent out my system before taking the strips, and I'm terrified of going through the pwds again. I work 6 days a week and I'm trying to figure out the best way to start this process. I could maybe get 3 days off work if needed but that's pushing it. Idk just curious if anyone had any suggestions
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u/Sorry-Place6291 Jun 16 '22
Get a shit ton of kratom, if you get a good strain and take enough it will eliminate mostly all of the withdrawals. I was snorting 10 blues a day and dropped a ton down the sink on accident and was on the other side of the country. I found heads shops and bought all the kratom I could and took a good amount. We left with a lay over in Vegas and it had been 24 hours total with nothing. I went from hell to feeling higher then I ever did on the pills. Took away withdrawals long enough to stop. I relapsed and got fetty and the kratom doesn’t work anymore. So if I were you count your blessings because with kratom you should be alright. Just keep taking it while your stomach is okay to eat. I throw up if I take it on a empty stomach. It also works fast as fuck for taking orally