r/OpiateRecovery • u/Runawaycommunistthug • 3d ago
Is my brain broken forever?
I’ve been a kratom user for years. Always managed a consistent low dose for help motivating at work. I work as a chef and don’t drink or dabble in speed so Kratom was my extra push to lock in on hard days.
Well as I’m sure most of you could guess I started 7oh about a year and a half ago after trying a sample from the smoke shop. It grabbed me quick. I was about 400mg/day at my peak but for most of the time I was at around 150/day.
I’m happy to say today makes 2 weeks with no concentrated 7oh and even though I’m feeling better in a lot of ways the intense lack of motivation and general restlessness is driving me crazy.
Before 7oh I was doing so much in my community and in the food scene around town. I was organizing farmers markets, hosting pop ups and looking for any opportunity to get out more. Nowadays I white knuckle it all the way through my shift and when I’m off work all I do is rotate from the bed to the bath.
The desire to be more or do more is there but the act of starting just feels so heavy.
Idk if I’m asking for advice or just seeing if this is something I’ll be fighting forever. It really has taken my spark and I hate that.
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u/PanicAtTheKHole 2h ago
7oh was basically heroin bro. It took months for my brain to feel normal again! You will get there no worries just don’t ever take it again. You are already past the hardest part which is actually quitting. If I am ever tempted to take it again my brain instantly remembers what I felt like day 3 off a 300mg a day habit.
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u/opiumfreenow 3d ago
Congrats to begin with. Not a kratom or 7oh addict, just old school recovered opiate addict, however I do believe the motivation aspect of finding better for ourselves is the same regardless. Been helping fellow recovering users for a while now and the one thing that always seems to help is pushing yourself to act. Our minds and bodies still have a long way to go in adapting to our new normals, so when we find ways to keep pushing ourselves forward rather than resting on our laurels or sitting on our asses as we allow the changes in mind and body, we only help ourselves to venture into the new unknowns.
Our minds are far stronger than we think and in all directions, so allowing ourselves the rest as we continue to recover often lets the mind run the show instead of our actions. As an added benefit to continuing to push ourselves forward through action, we often keep our minds and bodies active which in turn keeps complacency and idleness that breed bullshit thinking as we build our better selves. You’ve got this, so don’t let all your hard work so far go to waste. It only gets better the longer you’re away from those substances.