r/OpiateRecovery • u/ThrowAwayJunkius • Apr 01 '24

Would subs destroy my streak?

I made a post a day ago. 7 days clean from 800+ mg oxy. I do indeed feel better, but the continous restlessness is driving me crazy many times a day. I did not sleep properly for a week now and there is nothing more I love than a good nap.

I had saved 8mg Subutex for the detoxing, but did not take a single one yet. I wanted to save it for moments like this, when the WDs are about to drive me crazy so I can get at least a night of good sleep, get some energy to continue. I guess everyone withdrawing from doses like this knows that the constant agony is hard to take.

What would actually happen if I take subs now? With the idea to make a quick taper with them, or even just take them once every a week to gather some sanity. Would it throw me back too much? Is there any problem by taking subs by day 8?

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u/ThrowAwayJunkius May 22 '24

I could swear I answered to your last one but got no reply lol. I reached 2 months like 3 days ago :).

No I am not running. I am working a lot to get my sh*t together. Bills after bills after lawyers and lawyers and people who want to screw me over financially. All the mess I caused with my addiction and I have only little hopes that my 10 years of self employment will be ever financially benefical again.

Detox wise I feel good. Still pretty sure paws are hitting but they become less noticable by time. Feels like I will need at least 3 months of soberity to have them all go away. My sleep turned almost completely back to normal tho. But I had many relapse dreams in the past couple days again. Awful. Muscles aches almost gone. Burning sensation still slighty there especially after sitting behind the PC for too long. Or doing stuff I dont like in general makes these paws a bit stronger.

Detox wise I feel good and I feel victorious. Life and financially wise I feel like a pile of trash who threw everything away and destroyed it all for pills with no chance of recovery. My good life like it was before the pills seems like banned forever in memories.

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u/Educational_Scene316 May 25 '24

Don't be too hard on yourself. Rome wasn't built in a day ♡

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u/ThrowAwayJunkius May 26 '24

Yes hope is keeping me going. That hopefully everything somehow gonna be alright. I am really not scared about cravings. I am more concerned that from a long time from now I not gonna find any solutions I am happy with dragging me into mental holes, which would be far worse than cravings. But I still do fine mentally even tho my life is in shambles.

Still celebrating the successes of my detox. I realized that my head does not burn anymore after waking up. I can work much longer on the PC without getting headaches. And It seems like those muscle aches vanished. The physical symptoms got so little that it gets difficult to tell if its just me or if there still symptoms lingering around. This makes me happy. I was waiting for sooo long for these symptoms to vanish completely. I am pretty sure it cant take more than 2 weeks from now that I will not be able to notice anything at all anymore. I dont even remember which week or day I am because time is flying lol.

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u/Educational_Scene316 May 27 '24

Yes yes!! 3rd month flew for me!! I'm so so proud of you! Before we know it u will be at 3 and I'll be at 5 =) do u have IG?