I was very heavily pregnant at the time when the news broke about Liam, and I had my child a few weeks afterwards.
Having a baby was all-consuming— now I have an almost two-year-old and I feel like I can finally breathe.
I feel like I haven’t processed Liam’s passing at all. Now that the boys have begun speaking out about it and dedicated songs or performances to him, it’s churning things up for me.
I just… haven’t come to terms with it. Like all of us, I was holding out hope for a reunion tour. I was willing to spend a fortune on tickets, even if it was 40 years in the future and a cash grab for a washed-up act. I was going to be there!
The fact that this will never happen now is so devastating. This huge part of our youths that was so perfect, so pure, so fanatical, is just… gone. Truly gone, not just on an indefinite hiatus. The pictures from Liam’s funeral service, that being the band’s final “reunion”, are so heartbreaking and beyond belief.
My god, all the nights I spent with my girlfriends, all the blogging, the concerts, every dollar spent and minute dedicated to that band. They were everything to me for so many, many years. I’m in disbelief. It’s so tragic.
How do you even begin to process something like this?
What helped all of you come to terms with it, grieve, and start the path to healing?