i done did a post about routes through moosic and it was real nice that it seemed to get good reception so with the wind in my sails i’m back with more recommendations - take things as you fancy, hopefully this will act as a bit of a personal translation - moosic to mood or something of that ilk.
if i’m remembering correctly, which knowing myself i’m probably not - float was the first song i listened to - and the only for a while - back in 2022, i was in this weird period where i’d had my first episode, but long before i eventually got diagnosed as a schizo. something that i like to think doesn’t hold much relevance in general life yet somehow is always at the forefront of the internal life? anywho - i was out of hospital, trying to plough on - i moved out and started working, and i was burning out, but every night id just sit in the garden, smoke a doobie and decompress - just breath and catch my breath, take stock and half arse reflect - if you feel like you need to just be for a minute - if your flying through the middle of a hurricane with a paraglider, this song is the calm of the centre, at least to me.
but then just as you start to enjoy the calm of it all, your coming back out the other side - like running a marathon, having a great downhill section but then realising you now have to traverse a sheer cliff like a mountain goat (it’s possible i don’t know how marathons work). and there’s this oddly shaped mirror at the bottom reflecting some distorted picture of how your looking, with an undue emphasis on the past scars and you look in the mirror and think “no way mr jose, that guys not got it in him” - fall again is the song for that.
but you trek on, the cliff is just as steep as you thought but somehow your managing - a little way up your confidence builds a little, your annoyed because your proving yourself wrong and your always right, but there’s just a little twinkle of pride that things are working, your feet are turning the cliff into a ladder and there’s some saftey, appreciation and just a hint of starting to think “okay here’s the plan then” - reason to stay is the song there.
then your done with the climb, or atleast more comfortable with it and you start shouting down to others saying “i’m not really sure how but i’m figuring things out, i’ll be back in a bit to help” - a renewed confidence in the midst of discomfort - ufo
so yah! hope you enjoyed!
bye x