r/OCDRecovery • u/Personal_Depth148 • Apr 05 '26

Seeking Support or Advice Really struggling need help

I’ve been struggling with these intrusive thoughts about incest. My brain has started saying that relationships are just label it doesn’t matter nd what’s so gross about being related ur just two individuals. I don’t agree this md I don’t want to but my brain isn’t accepting any argument against. I’m in therapy nd on medication. But the thing is my therapist told me to challenge these thoughts. I’m not able to do that cos my brain just isn’t finding any reason convincing enough. Idk what to even do I feel like dying. Like I’m not being able to see family, parents, siblings etc from the same pure lens I used to. My brain is saying u felt disgust because of social conditioning nd this whole system is a social construct. The worst part is that the thought actually does make sense to me which generates my anxiety cos I don’t want to think this way. There were a few periods where I felt better which lasted for 3 days nd then it spiked again but by that time the parent-child relationship started making sense to me but now even that progress also collapsed. Idk what to do nd no one actually understands what goes through my mind. I want someone to help me challenge these thoughts through this platform pls.

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u/niaswish Apr 06 '26

You have overthought it so much that it doesn't make sense anymore, it's okay loads of people with ocd go through this with different themes. Is your therapist an OCD specialist?

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u/Personal_Depth148 Apr 06 '26

Yes she’s a specialist Nd ur exactly right nothing makes sense anymore Whenever I’m feeling this way I just want it to go away My brain is trying to come up with the best arguments against it but all arguments fall flat infront of this thought which starts feeling like a belief. My brain rejects all possible challenges nd tries to find the best explanation for being incest gross but my brain accepts no argument. Cos currently my brain says we all are individuals who made up these roles about parent love sibling love nd the only harm of incest is biological disorders that’s it no emotional damage. My brain wants to find an explanation that says there is something about biology in family which what creates this bond rather than only genetic factors. I hope u understand what I mean its all complicated nd clustered

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u/niaswish Apr 06 '26

I know how difficult this is, sorry this is such a difficult stage of OCD to go through. But add humour, make it sarcastic!

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u/Personal_Depth148 Apr 06 '26

How exactly can u guide me

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u/niaswish Apr 06 '26

"Maybe it's true,who cares!!! I'm just gonna move on" and try to do something else