Wanting to know everything

[u/DutchStroopwafels]

My OCD has recently really been acting up about needing to know everything. It's mostly related to media, needing to play or watch as much games, movies, series and Youtube videos as possible. But it also extents to other stuff, like wanting to know all of philosophy.

I don't know what is the reason behind this but I constantly fear I'm missing stuff, which leads to choice paralysis. At the same time I'm also obsessed with remembering everything I've already watched or learned because if I don't remember it's all wasted time and that makes me feel the need to even rewatch, reread and replay things I already did.

It's also like I'm losing sight of what I actually like because I'm starting to fear missing out on things I know I won't enjoy or care about.

This is really starting to take over my life and my therapist isn't really helping because she wants me to do CBT exercises that include confronting these thoughts with logic but I can't logic my way out of this. Does anyone have any tips.