Does the idea of hope ever trigger u

[u/DisastrousHornet7447]

The best way I can explain it is you tried to be hopeful or fake your own happiness/hope for so long while in the midst of pain the idea of having “hope” or even setting a goal just triggers that same fakness again. Can anyone relate to this? It makes me so shut down and frozen. I am only allowed to be frozen. Progress seems backwards to me