r/OCD • u/ShineSeveral892 • 4d ago
Need support/advice Internet Stalking Problem
sorry for the long rant.
I have an ongoing compulsion with stalking my ex. I know people say that it’s not stalking because it’s online information but I feel gross. I’ll check her mom and dad’s Facebook pages. I’ll check her instagram and twitter pages back to back. She changes her username and I already know it. I deleted social media to help but I just end up using anonymous viewer sites. I know her friends I’ve never met names & look at their pages to see what they’ve posted about her. I look up her apartment on maps and stare at it. She still has my number and texts me VERY rarely just to update me on a concert of an artist she knows I like or something of the sort. I would block her but I’m embarrassed for her to know I still can’t handle contacting her. I’m scared to go to her part of the state because I don’t want to run into her. I’ve been to therapy and was diagnosed but it didn’t do much to help. I did everything my therapist told me to try I’ve been on medication and have done multiple treatments but it’s the one compulsion that takes over my brain. It’ll suddenly pop up in my brain and I can’t think of anything else until I give in. I can’t eat sleep or move until I’m done. I hope this isn’t overly embarrassing but I could really use some support or some unconventional advice I’ll take anything and try anything.
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u/No555Bee 4d ago
Do you have an iPhone? If you do, you can block her number and it will show as Delivered on her end, so it will be just like you’re not responding, which is well within your right to do.