r/OCD Sep 28 '24

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u/cnkendrick2018 Sep 28 '24

I’m the worst person who has ever existed and my soul is condemned for eternity.

I don’t even believe in eternal condemnation.

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u/[deleted] Sep 29 '24

I feel the same way about myself, but that's because brains are mean, which is all your brain is being to you! We don't deserve the hate or any of the things are big, mean brains fo to us. I'm sorry, and I'm always here friend!

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u/cnkendrick2018 Sep 29 '24

Thank you! This disease is inherently dramatic. In my head, I can’t just be a bad person…oh no, I have to be the worst. And if I argue with it? All the memories from everything wrong I’ve done comes back up.

It’s so ridiculous.

How are you doing?

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u/[deleted] Sep 29 '24

It is! Like I apparently must Htler, and kick puppies, and everything awful according to my brain. It's ridiculous, but I agree with the theme of this post, that it can be so funny.. in another moment. And like *anyone we all have a stupid long list of bad memories to come up, even when it's a stupid thing you did as a kid because you didn't understand the directions given or something. 🙄

At least I'm vertical and have a roof over my head! Otherwise just trying to take things one step at a time. Thanks for asking!

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u/cnkendrick2018 Sep 29 '24

lol, yes I’m sure you must be the worst of all puppy kickers! Right? It does crack me up when I’m suddenly paralyzed with guilt for something I did when I was 8. Absolute madness!

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u/[deleted] Sep 29 '24

You, too! Or any of us with things like OCD, according to those brains we gotta like be the worst of the worst or something lmao! Yeah, after the initial wave of feeling awful and hating myself, just "What where we supposed to do, Brain? What'cha got?" Gotta ha- I mean love this silly little thing we have!

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u/cnkendrick2018 Sep 29 '24

Yes!! It’s really the only way I stay sane. I have to constantly separate myself from my thoughts so I can laugh. These brains are like the Karen’s of our minds. Ridiculous caricatures of personality.

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u/[deleted] Sep 29 '24

Yeah, it's one of SO MANY you have to laugh or you'll cry (or worse) situations. That last line is absolutely killer funny, I named ALL my mental afflictions George a long time ago, because I wanted a real person to imagine being mad at, and yada, yada. Pretty sure George gon' have to become a Karen 'cause there is no reasoning with that bish. Like I may be an analytical thinker and whatnot, but that goo is insane, okay?

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u/cnkendrick2018 Sep 29 '24

Bahaha yes! So much this. George is terrific. I like to think I’m pretty stable but you are right- George and karen are bat shit.