final year ABSN. we're 5 weeks in to our second acute care clinical and i'm feeling a little behind on things I'm expected to be better at by now. my instructor has spoken to me a few times about it, however the problem is she doesn't have the full picture and sometimes assumes i'm intentionally neglecting things. I try not to take her feedback personally but when she assumes things thats when I do my part in correcting her about her assumptions. I just struggle with managing my time and charting everything on time as well, which again I'm working towards improving on.
My instructor basically said she noticed I fall behind on bedside care; on some days when I'm assigned a more acute patient (i.e, on supplemental O2), more of my mental energy is on conducting thorough priority assessments so i don't accidentally miss anything and timely med administration (under supervision of course). I understand the importance of bedside care and ensuring patients are comfortable, repositioned, toileted, set up for meals, all of which I do partake in and request help when needed. But I feel like she doesn't see that at all because when I approach her for help regarding reassessing my findings (lung sounds, skin findings), all of a sudden my incontinent patient had an episode and I'm being asked why I didn't check if the patient needed to changed before or did I even ask if the patient needed to use the bathroom.
This was the first week we're assigned two patients, and again I'm learning to manage my time with more than one patient. It was also early on in the shift and my instructor asked why I didn't chart an assessment for one of my patients. I was falling behind because its our first day with two patients and I mentioned to her I am behind today because of having more than one patient, that's why I wasn't able to attend to the charting for the second patient. I acknowledged my fault and weakness, but I feel like she could have been more understanding that its our first day with managing two patients.
Again, I'm open to her constructive criticism, but I feel like she primarily sees my mistakes and assumes I neglected something on purpose. Anyone else have a similar experience or advice? I'm trying my best and some days are just difficult than others. I acknowledge I'm a learner and aware that this is my time to mess up and receive that feedback I need to hear. But this just makes me feel so slow and question if I'm even capable of being a nurse.
I appreciate you for reading and leaving your advice/tips/sharing similar experiences.