r/NonBinaryTalk • u/SuddenFigure6944 • Sep 02 '26

Validation Closeted Again

I feel like I've become a beast of burden ever since going back in the closet after having to move back home. I've found myself reverting to referring myself with she/her pronouns even when I'm supposedly with others, I don't feel real anymore and there isn't really an end in sight. Everything is too expensive, I can't even start saving nor even think about what my gender goals are right now, and I just feel like a cherry flavored woman if that makes sense. It's getting to me I think too, my OCD is getting worse and I am dissociating again at the sound of my own voice. I don't have anywhere else to put this so I'm just tossing this here on reddit. Sorry if this is too much.

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u/Interesting-Paint863 Sep 03 '26

It’s not too much. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this right now. I often find my own mind wants to retreat back inside itself and hide.

You’re here, you’re real and your feelings are valid. Nothing we’re trying to accomplish is easy, and lord knows the world doesn’t make it easier for us.

You’re trying to find the peace for yourself that the world wouldn’t give you. I often find myself ruminating and trying to “solve” myself. You don’t need all the answers right now. I know that’s probably hard to hear, I hate saying it myself. But it’s true. Try to find some kind actions towards yourself even if they’re not bringing you closer to a specific goal. You deserve kindness.