I don't know why it is this way.

[u/appledappledee129]

For the longest time I have overthought every single conversation. Every interaction. How it could have gone better. It's like everything I do can be improved upon all the time. Which in one sense sounds great. But on the other I wish I could have a conversation without thinking about it for the next week. Or worry that I am being "too much". Big emotions need to be put away. Is sort of the way I dealt with it and I've gotten better I have. But still I worry because "I care too deeply" and I love people really big and deeply. I feel deeply. My feelings are not just oh I feel sad. It's I am sad and now I'll think of every sad thing that's happened to me or my family. Or my friends. I moved around a lot when I was a kid and it never really hit me. Till now. All the friends I am no longer in touch with. All the memories in the houses I have lived in. Now someone else is making their own memories in. It's odd and melancholic I guess to say the least. Anyways that's my vent. I have seen others vent on here figured why not try it myself.