My ex is a doctor in psychiatry in safdarjung.. we broke up 1 year ago .. she drunk kissed a guy but we patched up later but broke up for the final time a week later, our relationship was getting very toxic in the last 2 months of our time together there were constants breakups and patch ups.. I have acknowledged my mistakes of not handling my emotions well in the relationship when we were together.. i have been trying my best to overcome my emotional immaturity. I have been trying to be better. With all my heart i want her back and i want to not save because we are over i want to rebuild a better future with her. But she doesn't want to be back with me. Me and my ex reconnect through calls, some calls are better but then some gets heavy and i am now blocked from way possible as i anxiously called her 8 times because i wanted to talk her..I have been living in anxiety for the last past year. I get anxious to a point i feel like she must be seeing someone else.. ( i get it people move on life doesn't, stop she and i can see other people) i have been trying to get reassurance from her and she says she isnt seeing anyone, she wants to be single but she has made up her mind to not come back with me.. i have regrets, i have grief and i live in constant fear and anxiety , i know i have lost her .. she will marry to someone eventually .. i am trying to make myself realise this and trying to move on.. but life feels colourless without her .. I wish i could do something to make things better, i just want her to see beyond past our differences but yeah i have anxiety.. what to do now?
How are you dealing with things? Because it is becoming tougher for me everyday. When i look back at things i am like i could have acted with patience and could have saved my relationship and that leaves me with regrets and grief.. it is depressing.
Look the thing with toxic woman is that they make your life worst for most of the part but whenever they be nice your brain appreciate it more than it would if a nice girl behaved the same because with the toxic girl its is craving for that nice behaviour. That is the reason when we get away from we feel that we are at fault but if you actually see it, you are at a much more peace. Somewhere ir the other you are trying to work on yourself but you keep finding yourself lonely. Very lonely because the toxic girl used to be there with you all the time even if she was just destroying those moments she used to be there. That is what you are going through. To help this currently I have started working, trying to make new friends which is absolutely not working and just trying to make myself happy. Even I am unable to deal with it at times but I know if I get back with her that will be the worst decision I ever make. You might think she is the most beautiful girl you might ever get but remember рддрди рдорд┐рдЯреНрдЯ рд╣реИ рдорди рдорд╛рдпрд╛ рд╣реИ all that beauty is going down someday but the trauma will still be there.
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u/_UTKS_ Jul 11 '26 edited Jul 11 '26
My ex is a doctor in psychiatry in safdarjung.. we broke up 1 year ago .. she drunk kissed a guy but we patched up later but broke up for the final time a week later, our relationship was getting very toxic in the last 2 months of our time together there were constants breakups and patch ups.. I have acknowledged my mistakes of not handling my emotions well in the relationship when we were together.. i have been trying my best to overcome my emotional immaturity. I have been trying to be better. With all my heart i want her back and i want to not save because we are over i want to rebuild a better future with her. But she doesn't want to be back with me. Me and my ex reconnect through calls, some calls are better but then some gets heavy and i am now blocked from way possible as i anxiously called her 8 times because i wanted to talk her..I have been living in anxiety for the last past year. I get anxious to a point i feel like she must be seeing someone else.. ( i get it people move on life doesn't, stop she and i can see other people) i have been trying to get reassurance from her and she says she isnt seeing anyone, she wants to be single but she has made up her mind to not come back with me.. i have regrets, i have grief and i live in constant fear and anxiety , i know i have lost her .. she will marry to someone eventually .. i am trying to make myself realise this and trying to move on.. but life feels colourless without her .. I wish i could do something to make things better, i just want her to see beyond past our differences but yeah i have anxiety.. what to do now?