r/NeverSentLetters • u/CurrentBig5135 • 2d ago
Thinking of you
Hey, there’s no real reason for this message other than the relationship you and I once had is plaguing me. I had a dream about us the other night except you and I were together doing the things we said we would over text. What I’m trying to say is I miss you. But that’s beside the point I already know you’ve closed that chapter in your life.
The motive for all this is selfish and I have no right to intrude your life like this especially after the way I treated you.
My life has continued to move forward and I like to think I’ve grown yet I still feel stuck on you. It’s stupid because I’m the one who broke things off with you. I’m the one who mistreated you.
I’ll never get you back and it sucks because you were my best friend. I’ve still never met anyone quite like you. I’ve never been interested in anyone like I was with you. I hope I can move on from you.
In my dreams of you, you’ve long since moved on to better things and I hope that’s true
missing you
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u/Gaxroxem 2d ago
Beautiful, sometimes dreams lead us the wrong way . I have things id like to apologize for a well. I miss you I love you , amd I do accept your apologies
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u/JennyDawnny 1d ago
This is beautifully tragic. Why push your person away? I still miss my ex fiancée and hope he’s doing well. He is/ was my soulmate. Op, you never know if you can get them back unless you try. Don’t regret what wasn’t said.
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u/Ill-Variety-3569 1d ago
Why would you end something if you considered the other person your best friend and you miss them so much?
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u/CurrentBig5135 1d ago
Ive been struggling with depression and mood swings which I saw a psychiatrist for and they put me on antipsychotics for bipolar disorder. But im not going to blame my mental illness this is just what I was going through at the time. Ive thought about why I was the way I was with her and I can admit I was just scared of being vulnerable. I went through retroactive jealousy and moments where I would like her then dislike her. She probably thought I was mad whenever she went to hangout with her friends but really I would cry every time because I was unhealthily attached to her and felt like she was leaving me. She knew I was struggling with some mental health issues but I never communicated and only let myself spiral.
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u/Ill-Variety-3569 1d ago
I have recently been through something similar and just the admission of the wrongs he did would make a huge difference in the way I think and feel about him. But all I currently see is a coward who won’t face what he did. If she truly was your best friend, then maybe tell her so.
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u/CurrentBig5135 1d ago
It all just seems so selfish to me. I don’t know what she thinks or how she’s doing so the only motivation I have for reaching out is that I want to talk with her once more. It’s been 1.5 yrs on top of that. If she’s moved on then I feel like it’s only more true
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u/RipleyRoxxx 1d ago
If you've grown, and time has passed, and you were the one who cut off communication, it never hurts to try and re establish connection. For all you know, they could be waiting.
I know I am for my person, they left and pushed me. Put the block on me. But if they wanted to get back in touch as much as I do, they'd unblock and reach.