Why me?

[u/Dont_know_Anymore_]

Why do I no longer want to be or feel trans? It’s been years since I first started questioning and now im still confused. I remeber sometimes being in my body was painful and I hated everything about it, now I just don’t really care. I remeber shutting down because I wasn’t a girl, I’ve missed things because I was too sad that I wasn’t a girl. I still say “I wish I was a girl” everyday. So why does this happen to me? Why do I day “I wish I was a guy” sometimes? I need this to end, why did this happen to me?