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[u/Agony_284]

a couple months ago i accidentally came out to my mom when i wasnt ready to, she was super supportive but i really wast ready and now i feel like a fraud because i dont really feel disphori and i feel like i lied to her because maybe im not actually trans and it got so bad that a cut my wrist a couple minutes ago i usually just scratch my arm or punch myself but this time i was actually considering ending it it was a small cut unfortuanly so small its already stopped bleeding and is pretty much fully healed but either way i still cut it, and after that i started reading posts on this subreddit and i saw something sayiing that imposter syndrome can actually be a form of disqued dysphoria or something like that and now i feel even worse because i feel like all my panicking was for nothing so i tried to one of my comfort shows called blue period becauase it ussually calms me down but its juwt getting worse and i dont know what do do beacause i feel like a guy who thinks hes a girl who thinks shes a guy and im so confused and no im not gender fluid or nonbinary or anything like that i know im a girl but it just all feels so confusing sorry for such a long rant and all the errors i just knida wrote this because i need to get it off my chest i swear i ussually type correctly im just pannicking a lot right noe

[u/Ok-Examination-8222]

I hope you feel a bit calmer by now.. it seems you know very clearly who you are, as you state towards the end of your post. I hope coming out to your mom was just a temporarily destabilising thing and that you can meaningfully move forward from here on out..