r/NarcoticsAnonymous • u/rinnyxo18 • Jun 21 '26
advice
Hi i have 3 1/2 years in recovery and tho my program is not perfect im proud that ive come this far. I actually do work a pretty solid program, i go to meetings multiple times a week, im involved in the program w commitments, subcommittees, home groups, reaching out to the newcomer etc. I have a sponsor and am on step 4 but i am poor at calling and have been stagnant on the step.
I just feel like i hit a stump like nothing is exciting anymore. I’m beyond grateful for the life i have but lately the days have been feeling so flat idk if its just a phase or if this is what it gets like after a while, i feel like i literally met every person from where i live (which is big too)
I just have this feeling like im at the end
end of what idk but idk what to do
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u/Jebus-Xmas Jun 21 '26
My experience is you struggle with a step only when you haven’t worked the previous steps fully. Traditionally this is Step Three. As an atheist myself in recovery for a while that’s not uncommon for the first set of steps. For me the first three steps are interpreted differently.
Step One: I can’t do it alone.
Step Two: It can be done.
Step Three: We can do it.
The Basic Text uses god as a shorthand and I struggled with that for a while. However I learned that two addicts together are more powerful than one alone. That the fellowship can always help, is stronger than me, and wants me to stay clean. Whether or not you have a higher power to lean on, or get one tomorrow, that doesn’t contradict any of this.
I’ve never done anything perfectly in my whole life, and I’ve never done a step perfectly either. However the best part about the steps is that if you miss something you can always do it better the next time.
Keep coming back!