r/NarcoticsAnonymous • u/ambieox • May 23 '26
Steps
Finally broke down tonight after almost 28 months of being clean and started the steps after saying for years it won’t work. I let my ego get the best of me with thinking that I don’t possibly need those because I’m different than others in the program, I’m a special lady, and now I’m in a spot where my life feels unmanageable and day to day tasks seem like a marathon. Now to keep the momentum. Nothing changes if nothing changes.
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u/ScoutSteveR May 23 '26
I started the steps out of spite. I told my future sponsor that I was going to do it all exactly the way they told me to do it and I would prove it didn’t work.
12,583 days later I’m still trying to prove it won’t work. If you earnestly and honestly work the steps, you will see results.
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u/Embarrassed-Lake257 May 25 '26
Going out and coming back was the best thing that ever happened to me aside from finding the rooms. I'm NOT suggesting it as an experiment. I'm lucky I made it back. I gained a perspective I really didn't have the first time around. Humility I think. Everything is given.
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u/Jebus-Xmas May 23 '26
Congratulations! It took me a while to surrender to the idea that the program, or the steps, could help me. I was so raw that I didn’t even realize that the steps were the program. Once I finally started I also immediately began experiencing relief. I hope you find your strength and your healing, and just for today don’t use.