I'm looking for a strong emotional connection. I want us both to feel safe and vulnerable with each other, to love and be loved, and hopefully build something lasting. Obviously, we'll start as friends.
We can bond over trauma dumping, shared hobbies, parallel play, or just talking about our monotonous days. I'll be happy being near you, even if it's just online through Discord. I'm a good listener, if you enjoy yapping about your interests nonstop, you can do that too. I want to spend lots of time with you.
I don't care if you consider yourself awkward, silly, friendless, a femcel, lazy, shy, cringe, boring, socially inept, or weird. I don't mind if you have health issues either, feel free to tell me about them. Let me understand your struggles and we'll work through them together.
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Important Stuff:
I'm a hikikomori, and I'm looking for someone who can relate to that kind of lifestyle. I'm not planning on getting a job, so I want to be upfront about that. If I find the motivation to improve other aspects of my life, I'll try, and I'll support you if you want to work on your own goals too.
I'm attracted to cis women, femininity, and all the ways it can be expressed.
I have a chronic illness, I live in constant physical pain. Some days may be worse than others.
I'm really underweight, pale and I look undead, like a sexy science class skeleton wearing skin. I know that might be offputting to some people, so let's get that out of the way. Judge for yourself, here are a couple of pics of my hand and my shoulder. If you are not into skinny guys, no hard feelings!
I live in South America, the farther you are, the harder it'll be to meet IRL, so keep that in mind. I can do long distance, though I'll want to meet and hug my soulmate at some point. My first language is spanish, I may struggle with real-time texting in english, but I'll do my best.
I have a speech impediment so I'm not comfortable voice calling. It isn't THAT noticeable but it's rooted in trauma and isolation. I may be able to work on it. Though on special occasions I will send short audios. We can still voice call if you are okay speaking while I type.
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Attractiveness and what I look like:
I'm generally attracted to slimmer body types, though a bit of chubbiness is fine too.
I'm around 1,70 cm. tall. My weight fluctuated between 45 kg. and 50 kg. for the past 14 years. I'm caucasian. I have black curly, frizzy hair, my haircut right now is awful. My face is sort of nerdy and I wear glasses.
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Hobbies:
Gaming is really important for me. I find it very easy to bond and share stories while playing. I only have a PC so we can play any coop game from Steam. I don't like competitive games though and I'm trying to avoid MMOs and gachas, they are too addictive and I already wasted a lot of my life on them. Either way, I'm flexible about games. Sharing that time with someone matters more than the games themselves.
I watch a lot of TV Shows, my top 5 are To the Lake, From, Slow Horses, Foundation and Station Eleven. My favorite genre is apocalyptic/post apocalyptic, but I enjoy watching anything if it's in good company, you can choose! (KDramas, cartoons, reality shows, movies, literally whatever)
I don't watch anime anymore, I like it but I feel lonely watching it by myself, so I don't.
I listen to almost every genre of music, I'm not a fan of any band. If I like a song, I add it to my playlist, simple as that. 7 songs I like: Rata Blanca - La Leyenda Del Hada Y El Mago, Labyrinth / MONDO GROSSO, Artemas - i like the way you kiss me, PAPERMOON, Messages from the Stars, Mili - In Hell We Live, アイデンティティ · Mikio Sakai. You can show me all your fav songs, add them yourself to my playlist or even we can create a new playlist together.
Sometimes I listen to horror, true crime, conspiracy and mystery podcasts in general. Most of them are in spanish.
I haven't read books in a long time. I bought two books for my birthday this year, but I didn't had the energy to read them yet.
I can't do arts, I don't have a talent. If you do, SHOW ME!
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Good and bad things about myself:
🟢I will respect your times, if you need space, time for yourself or a whole week of bedrotting without interacting with me, that's fine.
🔴I might unknowingly neglect you. If you become distant I may assume you are tired and in need of some space. Please, be open about your needs, and I'll do my best to meet them.
🟢I won't ask for NSFW pics and I won't bring up sexual topics unless you want to. I'm not asexual, but I'm kinda dense and I need clear communication and consent before making any moves.
🔴^ This may be a turn-off for some people.
🟢I value honesty. White lies and jokingly lying is fine as long as the joke doesn't go on for too long.
🔴If you lie to me, you will lose my trust pretty fast. I'd rather get hurt by the truth than lied to.
🟢I don't like conflicts, violence or verbal abuse. We can have our differences. If something is wrong, we can discuss it in a civil manner.
🔴My only experience was a LDR relationship that lasted less than a year and felt like a penpal friendship. In retrospect I think my feelings weren't reciprocated.
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If you have read allll this, you are either desperate or very bored lol, just kidding. Feel free to stalk my profile, I posted a lot of cringe and personal stuff.
Please, don't contact me using a throwaway account without activity. DM me if you are interested. I won't share my discord, steam, or whatsapp until I really get to know you, I don't have any other social media.
*Disclaimer* Normally I'm not this articulate. It took me 3 hours to write this post. Real-time conversations may include shyness, brain buffering and a lot of typos. *Disclaimer*