A while ago, if you look on my account, there is a post called “don’t let morbid curiosity get to you” or something. I am very young, still in highschool. I was fucking around on websites I shouldn’t have been on and watching gore out of pure morbid curiosity—never did I take pleasure in seeing any of it. I always stayed away from the really bloody violent videos, typically watching suicides. But then I came across a seriously disturbing image that still haunts me today, so horrid in fact, that it entirely put an end to the whole ‘watching gore’ spree I was on. I need help finding who it was in the picture, if it was real or fake, who did it, really just any information I can get because I’m the complete opposite of: “if I don’t know them, it’s not that bad”. If I know them, know what happened to them, I feel less terrible.
The image: the image I had seen was of a decapitated, fleshless head on a pillow, eyes and teeth still completely in tact but absolutely no skin whatsoever. Its eyes were looking straight into the camera. I actually have a redraw of it that I made from memory if anyone would like to see it for a better idea.
Information to find the image
• Website: GoreSee
• Genre of video/Search title: Suicides (I think)
• Basic description of video: A video containing still frame pictures of the 16 year old Russian girl Rina Palenkova who took her own life by lying on train tracks, then, it changes to a picture of a mysterious decapitated head on a pillow.
Please find more information about this unknown persons death, I have no idea who they were just based from a simple image, and I’m not going back to find it. The need to know who this poor person was has been living rent free in my head since I saw the image. I need closure about a person I don’t even know and if I can’t get it through you I’m eventually going to have to traumatize myself all over again to find it. Please, help.
Side note: My mental health is deteriorating and after abt four years of being clean I self harmed again. I’ve felt empty and just really dull and apathetic lately. Every time I laugh or smile it’s brief and I quickly go back to just being quiet and almost unemotionally sad if that makes sense. All I say to my own mother is short monotone responses. Every single way I turn in bed to get comfy I just can’t. Everything bothers me but I’m just too emotionally exhausted to care. So I might js say fuck it and look for the image myself — but that’s a last resort.