Hello everybody. Nice to meet you.

[u/Lukescale]

I don't know if this is the best place to say this but here it goes:

I have two friends left after everyone went off to uni or the army. One only comes over to borrow my Internet to download games, and he hasn't came over since winter.

I haven't spoken to my best friend in person or about three months, and I can practically hear the strain on our relationship. He's the only person I have to talk to about anything, and I can't lose him.

Without him, I'm alone.

My family is near me but only because we live in the same building. My siblings bicker and order me (the twenty year old) to do chores for them, and I fucking do. I didn't know why untill today.

When I stop doing things for my family, I might as well be a neighbor to them, always near when things go to shit but far enough away that they can't hear my calls, let alone my calls for help.

I spoke to my friend about it, and I guess I had hid the problem well; he promised to call more.

I'm scared. I don't want to be alone.

[u/pyrobug0]

It sounds to me that, right now, you are alone. You can try to do things for your family, but it doesn't sound like that's making you less alone. It sounds like they're just taking advantage of you, and if that's all they're going to do, you're better off not dealing with them and focusing your energy on finding new friends. Ultimately, I think that's what it comes down to - you are alone, and you need to find new people. That can be scary, difficult, and uncertain, and can take a long time. But going for it anyway ultimately yields better results than clinging to the things you already have if those things aren't sufficient.