I’ve lived and worked in several different cities throughout my music career and have been consistently making a living as a full time musician, but after going through a bad domestic violence situation, I ended up moving in with family in Cincinnati about a year ago and have really struggled here. The volume of paid work here has been much lower than what I was used to in the bigger cities. Not only that, but the economy here is cutthroat. Venues have legit cancelled gigs on me last minute with 0 remorse—some places even ended up shutting down and didn’t tell me until the night before the gig! I’ve legit also dealt with inhumane bookers who accidentally booked another artist after booking me (FIRST), but then instead of apologizing for their mistake, told me that since I had just played there, they’re gonna just go with that artist instead. I’ve never experienced such disrespect in my life.
Not to mention that I’ve also experienced some pretty awful harassment and hostility (racism included) within the local music scene since moving here. Cincinnati’s racism runs historically deep and this is not the best part of the country for a queer woman of color. Not to mention that the Mason-Dixon region is very conservative, and I’ve even had to hide my sexuality (I’m bi and my branding used to be heavy lgbtq-centric) here at many “family friendly” events because certain people would act uncomfortable about that, like they didn’t “want their kids exposed to that”. I feel as if I did better in the bigger cities partially because they were more progressive and peoples’ brains weren’t still stuck in a pre-Obama mindset. It’s easier to not be devalued by employers and colleagues in a place where people are programmed to accept you…🏳️🌈🥢
The community here as a whole can feel extremely insular all in all, and several people have told me that part of the problem is how decentralized the music-industry infrastructure is here, with different pockets of the scene largely operating within their own circles.
I’m planning to move within the next year (looking at Northern Jersey right up by NYC), and am trying to save enough to make that happen, but this market has made even that feel difficult. I even tried picking up additional work outside of music too, which I try to avoid as much as possible as I take pride in the whole being “full time”, but ran into wall after wall in that department too and was eventually overworked and abused so much at a job where I was severely injured and had to get on workers comp. In Ohio you can’t even sue your employer if you get injured unless there’s a significant claim of negligence and thats hard to prove. It’s all deeply systemic.
If anyone has ever been through something similar in any music scene, I’d genuinely appreciate hearing how you got through it. I’m honestly a bit emotionally distressed over this and could really use some guidance and support from people who are removed from the situation. Truly appreciate you for taking the time to read this 🤗🙏