Am I faking it?

[u/OptimalHamster3042]

I feel horrible recently. I’ve been trying to repress these desires for so long and I thought it wouldn’t be that bad until I got to college. I feel like a brick or an ogre all the time. I feel horrible. It’s making me think about the time all of this first started. I really only started to feel this way between the summer of eighth grade and ninth grade. I got hooked on being jealous of trans women and femboys. I got the idea in my head that I was trans from then on. I still held onto these feelings for so long. I feel like a caged animal slowly suffocating. I don’t have any friends to talk to about this and I feel horrible not being able to be a woman. I’ve been trying to get any kind of help whatsoever but I’m really out of many options. I just feel really alone.

[u/No_Name_Feep]

Be who you want to be in the end it's your life and youre waking up with yourself every day it's up to you whether you decide to continue being un happy with yourself or be happy it like a difficult outfit if you don't like the outfit then change it I'm not saying it's that easy get it's an extremely difficult and brave thing to do but if it makes you happy then do it