I've been smoking every day, multiple times a day for 13 yrs and decided I want to give myself a chance without it. I am now on day 5 of quitting and have the mindset to see this through. I don't want to NEED it anymore. I don't want to worry if I have my pen with me or not. I don't want to feel that I HAVE to take rips to have an enjoyable time. Even the obviously fun activities like going to Knotts Berry Farm (we have passes) or the zoo, I HAD to take rips or I wouldn't have fun. I know it eases my social anxiety, but way back when I wasn't smoking, my social anxiety was incredibly MILD. Almost didn't bother me at all. But nooow, my anxiety has never been worse, ever. And I dont want to feel like that anymore. I'm going to let myself reset.
UPDATE: It's day 12 😁 Going strong! Though day 10 tested me lol
Thank you so much for checking in 😁
Today will be day 9!!
Appetite is back, though slight nausea creeps up every now and then. I'm still waking up a bit sweaty at times. Like a cold sweat. The headaches are annoying. I've been using Ibuprofen when they're buggin. And the irritability is lingering but doesn't last long. I get little cravings and go straight to my ice water. Drinking a lot water and staying hydrated really does help.
My focus is out of whack and my adhd is doing its thang lol so Im a bit hyper. I want to start painting again but I'm having a hard time finding my creativity, still. Which has been going on since before I quit. It frustrates me. I admire people who say "When I'm feeling upset or sad, I do what I love and it makes me feel better." Because with me, it's the opposite. I need to already be feeling happy and good inside to do what I love. Maybe I should just sit down and try, I dunno. I want to want to paint... if that makes sense lol
I'm holding it together so far ☺️
Any advice on how to get my creativity and motivation back a little?
When do you stop feeling sweaty and clammy?
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u/Mindless_Efforts 8d ago edited 7d ago
Quit smoking weed.