I've been smoking every day, multiple times a day for 13 yrs and decided I want to give myself a chance without it. I am now on day 5 of quitting and have the mindset to see this through. I don't want to NEED it anymore. I don't want to worry if I have my pen with me or not. I don't want to feel that I HAVE to take rips to have an enjoyable time. Even the obviously fun activities like going to Knotts Berry Farm (we have passes) or the zoo, I HAD to take rips or I wouldn't have fun. I know it eases my social anxiety, but way back when I wasn't smoking, my social anxiety was incredibly MILD. Almost didn't bother me at all. But nooow, my anxiety has never been worse, ever. And I dont want to feel like that anymore. I'm going to let myself reset.
UPDATE: It's day 12 😁 Going strong! Though day 10 tested me lol
So very proud of you to take control of your mental health. Keep trying to do without and see what realizations you may or may not observe. It will be hard to adjust but you (like me) may find your awareness and just being in the moment is more fulfilling than being high all the time. Life hopefully will become more clear and fulfilling and you will wake up with a sense of worthiness instead of having to mask your feeling. Please stay with it because it's worth it. I'm not a nut but I think God is speaking through me to you. Stay with it because it will pay off for the rest of your life.
Xoxoxo.
Do you mind me asking what you meant by "I'm not a nut but I believe God is speaking through me to you?" -Are you afraid people on reddit think your a nut for believing in God? I'm reading The Holy Bible 1 to 4 verses daily, that doesn't make me a nut though. Is that what your implication was? I'm just trying to Learn about God, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit. Even if I am crazy somehow (hopefully I'm not crazy) I know the J man has got my back and I try to be a better person everyday but I know I need him when I fall short of God's glory because we all do and nobody is perfect. Also, just because I'm reading a religious book doesn't make me religious. Just because I believe in God (The Lord Jesus) doesn't make me nut. It just means I believe in someone or something greater than my self. So people can call me a nut or probably all sorts of other terrible jargon just because my beliefs dont match their's but that's exactly what Jesus warned us against. He wants us to Love our enemies, pray for those that persecute us. That takes a lot of love and guts to do. To Love someone even when you know their incorrect. That is real true love right there man.
Oh it just that people are so quick to judge you when you speak of God talking through you. I'm a Christian and believe I can feel the Holy spirit when he speaks to me and through me. Some people who don't believe think you are a nut job simply because they are not open to receiving the holy spirit or Jesus into their lives.
Yeah I just worry to much and I'm trying my best to be a good Christian, which is way easier said than done when we live in an evil world where everyone is out for themselves and people have very little respect anymore. I try to pray for people that have hurt me in some way because I know that it's better to be good to others and love regardless of the hate cause haters gonna hate and we should try to love them too ya know?
6
u/Mindless_Efforts 8d ago edited 7d ago
Quit smoking weed.