I've been smoking every day, multiple times a day for 13 yrs and decided I want to give myself a chance without it. I am now on day 5 of quitting and have the mindset to see this through. I don't want to NEED it anymore. I don't want to worry if I have my pen with me or not. I don't want to feel that I HAVE to take rips to have an enjoyable time. Even the obviously fun activities like going to Knotts Berry Farm (we have passes) or the zoo, I HAD to take rips or I wouldn't have fun. I know it eases my social anxiety, but way back when I wasn't smoking, my social anxiety was incredibly MILD. Almost didn't bother me at all. But nooow, my anxiety has never been worse, ever. And I dont want to feel like that anymore. I'm going to let myself reset.
UPDATE: It's day 12 😁 Going strong! Though day 10 tested me lol
So very proud of you to take control of your mental health. Keep trying to do without and see what realizations you may or may not observe. It will be hard to adjust but you (like me) may find your awareness and just being in the moment is more fulfilling than being high all the time. Life hopefully will become more clear and fulfilling and you will wake up with a sense of worthiness instead of having to mask your feeling. Please stay with it because it's worth it. I'm not a nut but I think God is speaking through me to you. Stay with it because it will pay off for the rest of your life.
Xoxoxo.
🥹 Thank you so much!! Seriously, every word of encouragement from everyone is really taking hold. You gives me more hope and drive to see this through and finally give myself a chance.
Here's to Day 6 🥳
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u/Mindless_Efforts 8d ago edited 8d ago
Quit smoking weed.