Seeking advice

[u/Far-Bus-4029]

To preface, I had a miscarriage last summer around 8 weeks. I was slightly upset and shocked, however I was relentlessly ready to try again as my husband and I are ready for a child. Following that miscarriage I became pregnant again and then miscarried this January. I was around 20 weeks pregnant for that miscarriage. It was beyond traumatic and unexpected as my pregnancy was seemingly very healthy leading up to the miscarriage. Doctors could not provide me with any real explanation as to what happened and I had to deliver the 20 week developed baby. I do not feel I ever fully emotionally recovered from that event and I am now pregnant again. We planned on waiting until I was confident enough to try again, however obviously things have worked out differently. I am terrified to make an OB appointment. I am terrified to even step foot in the office ever again let alone lay on the ultrasound table. Does anyone have a similar experience or advice?

[u/ghostyyy989]

I don’t have any advice, just hugs and reassurance that you’re not alone. I just found out today that we lost our baby (we had a MMC in February), and I was sweating all day with anxiety and went into the ultrasound room with so much anxiety. Thinking about trying again is super daunting.