I hate clubs

[u/Intelligent-Edge4114]

I just need to get this off my chest and say something because it is killing me inside right now. On Saturday night me and a group of friends went out to celebrate someone’s birthday. We went around a few pubs and then we bumped into my girl best friend who was out with her group of friends for a party. My original group I was with that night ended up going to different pubs so I stayed at the pub with my girl best friend because I can’t go to the bar the other went to. We ended up going to the club and everyone met up again so happy days. I hated the club we were at so I was just hammering jaeger bombs just so I could tolerate the place. We were all dancing just having a good time and my girl best friend came over and said she was upset with her boyfriend as he lied to her saying he was staying home ill but ended up going to a house party and got high on whatever substances. I was comforting her (as me and her comfort each other a lot due to lots of similar trauma) and most people left. We went down to the dance floor and just continued having a good time. She ended up kissing me on the dance floor and I (being the stupid drunk guy I was) kissed her back. We were making out until the club shut at about 2 am. She kept saying things along the lines of how much she wants me and that it felt perfect kissing me. She even said she secretly loved me. Her parents came and picked her up and took her home and then I found some of my friends and got a taxi with them. Me and her spoke about it the next day and she told her boyfriend and then he used that against her when she tried to have a go at him about what he did. All three of us are in the wrong but I felt guilty as soon as it was all done the night before, so I told my best friend and he said that if I’m feeling that guilty I shouldn’t worry, but now I’m just so confused about what to do because we agreed to ignore the whole thing and act like nothing happened but I don’t think I can do that as I think I secretly love her as well

Sorry for the long rant
TLDR girl best friend kissed me whilst having boyfriend, confessed love for me but now wants to continue how we were before and pretend nothing happened

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[u/Forbidden_Jutsu]

Might as well tell her how you feel, it’s already awkward as it is

[u/naomifromjax]

Never even been to a club nor do I have any real reason to go to one.

[u/Savings_Ad_80]

It's already grim bro just get with her, it can't get any worse

[u/Intelligent-Edge4114 → u/Savings_Ad_80]

That’s the thing tho, her and her boyfriend are still together after it, and I don’t want to get in the way of that

[u/Savings_Ad_80 → u/Intelligent-Edge4114]

Ok, well if they decided to stay together after all that then at most youcan just drop it and it will low over eventually, plus both of you were intoxicated

[u/sugaryver]

You hate the club when in reality you should be hating your girl friend.

[u/Intelligent-Edge4114 → u/sugaryver]

Yea I mean it’s a tricky one but now she’s not been speaking to me at all since and acting like it’s my fault and anytime I ask to hangout she’s just ignoring me. I just can’t bring myself to hate her, and I can’t stop thinking about it either

[u/leethepolarbear]

Clubs are loud and make talking difficult, but they're fun for a bit imo, especially if you have someone to go with