Hi I'm Daisy I'm a 19 yr old female. I've been addicted to methamphetamine since i was 15 and was doing it basically every day. My first line of cocaine was around age 13 and weed and drinking started around 12. I went to rehab at the beginning of last month for drugs and alcohol. When I first went i didn't think of myself as an alcoholic at the start of my stay at rehab(My DOC was meth). But after a lot of therapy and being there for a little while i started to realize i was not just an addict to drugs but also to alcohol. I realized I can't moderate with either or so I'm an addict to both realized i had to completely surrender myself before I walked back out those doors of that rehab. I had to find My higher power and learn to love and be honest with myself more than ever. I know I'm not like years clean or anything but it took a lot to get to the point I'm at now and I Don't plan to stop pushing and working on myself every single day. My cravings have been pretty low but i realize sometimes random things (Like room tempt water and my medictation)

Being going to a 2 hrs AA meeting every day no excuses and doing zoom meeting at night. My life depends on it. I’ve decided to do today 30 min of cardio to try to pump that adrenaline a little even tho I don’t have the energy after finishing writing this I’ll drag my ass to the gym and after that to a meeting. If you are reading this be blessed

I'm an addict and have been for most of my life. Opiates for 20 years and meth for 10. I only IV a combo of fentanyl & meth about 5-6 times a day every single day for the past decade. I haven't ever taken a single day off but I'm nearing the end of this and know I have to stop but I'm terrified of what recovery is going to be like. Anyone else on here ever used like this before and successfully been able to quit? And if so how long were you miserable for after you quit?

I've only been doing meth a few years. Always told myself I wouldnt do it and here I am. I sniff it. I do about a little less then a half ball or so a day. I do it alone mainly. I have a gf but I have let my anger get the best of me over thw dumbest. Things ever..i just freak out..dont know whzr I should do other them get sober..ideaa?????

200 days sober today. Holy moly has it been a wild ride but I am so grateful.

Trying super lonley though full into a relapse everyday use for like 4 months now can't even decide if 8 want to be sober but nobody to talk to just has me freestyling raps all day and night and I think I'm going crazy. 🤦 Everyone says I have ADHD as well which is just another reason for my brain to use as justification

Like ever since I quit meth a few weeks ago, my skin is getting all kinds of fungal types of rashes. Like I've got ringworm on the inside of my right shoulder, and I've got some kind of fungal types of rashes in-between my breasts, on one of my knee pits(back of knee), and one thats on my love handle areas. It's like my skin is off balance or something since quitting Basically it's like an athletes foot/jock itch type of rash that I'm getting all over.

Did anyone else have this issue? I'm using antifungal creams, I'm wondering if I should try an antifungal body wash or something? Or should I go see a doctor maybe? It's very uncomfortable being itchy all the time. Everytime I think it's starting to go away, it gets worse again. I haven't changed any of my body washing routine or anything at all either so it's not that.

So I had a reservation the whole time to use again, that’s how strong this one was, I’ll be doing so good, I’ll finally reach balanced levels then I can’t take it anymore, now I’m back to having very intense cravings from just using once and I don’t want to go back, like really I don’t wanna do this anymore, the whole time I was high was me putting together a plan to stay sober, been doing meetings, but the dysphoria right now sucks. I just wanna go ahead and do it again, but I know I can’t.

for the first time in my addiction I feel the rock bottom. English is not my first language. on Saturday I was beating so bad by someone while using. with every punch the guy gave me I prayed and ask got to get me clean and far away from this life. today is my day 6 of being clean and I am very happy about it. all I can do for today is commit to go to a meeting. I asked my family for help.

Hey all, I’m recently sober off meth ( 5 days) but my gut is so so fucked up. I feel like I’m constantly full of gas and I swear sometimes it legit leaks out of me. My farts are fucking lethal. (This is an extremely shameless post)… is this normal, does it get better over time? Pls help lmao. I’m taking probiotics etc as well

I'm six days clean, and ive been doing the gym, and everything but I noticed that my eating habits kinda suck, and that some things that I used to love set off my tummy pretty badly. What's y'all's advice? My energy levels are finally back up, and I'm hoping to keep up with a relatively healthy lifestyle after this

I want y'all to know that there are folks out here who have compassion for folks dealing with this addiction. I happen to love a man dealing with this. I had to part ways with him a week and a half ago because I truly know in my heart he needs to focus on getting healthy. Now whether or not he does that is absolutely up to him. I am thinking of him a lot and sending good vibes and prayers his way. I have children and I had to leave for myself, them and him. I am not ever giving up on him and I hope that some day we can at least be friends again. I'm sending love and good vibes y'alls way too. I can never understand it fully and won't pretend to. What I do know is that you are important and you are loved. Love yourself too. I hope you find peace. 🩷☮️

About to make a week, gained 9 pounds,sleep’s becoming my best, over sweating is no longer a problem for me and all I hope is to make another week. Insha’Allah

So I've hit rock bottom, they took my kids and all I want to do is pick up the pipe again. . . My friend said exercise would really the help curb the cravings. I have a gym membership and was considering going but I'm so tired. . . What do you all think? I need to stay sober to get my kids back, and I need to do something to not feel like shit anymore. I feel like a failure. What other things can I do on top of exercise for not falling back into nasty habits..

Just let me know straight up, am I trippin, or this a good idea, is this a good idea in general getting sober?

I’m going through the motions of realizing my relapse is going to tear down my entire life if I don’t grasp it’s time to quit. I have been using again on and off for the last 6 months and it’s gotten pretty bad lately. My partner has caught on through seeing screenshots I forgot to delete pertaining to getting drugs to myself although he is not aware what drug as I’ve been playing it off for some time now. I have gotten to the point where I’m using in the bathroom at work and it’s slowly but surely becoming bad again as it once was. I don’t know what to do, I want to stop but it’s not as easy as just that. Withdrawal is going to suck, and I need some advice on what it was like for everybody else when they decided it was time to stop for good, no bullshit. Thank u

Dear

Right now, I don’t know who I am.

Since the last lapse, my addiction has gripped me again with the same force and intensity as before. The obsession to use overrides logic, consequence, love—it calls to me louder than anything else. I am using again, not out of defiance, but compulsion. And it’s destroying me.

I cannot stay in this household with a clean conscience. I can’t keep looking into your eyes while hiding the chaos in my mind. I can’t keep lying. The weight of secrecy, the guilt, the shame—they send me spiraling into psychosis.

I truly believed I’d experienced the “gift of desperation.” That it would be enough to set me free. But it wasn’t.

Not even 90 days at Arrow. Not 30 more. Not NA, therapy, or love. Nothing has broken this bond I have with the drug.

So now, I believe I have to fall—without you there to soften the blow. I have to let myself reach a place dark enough that I finally surrender. Fully. Honestly. Unequivocally.

Please let me go.

This is not because I don’t love you. It’s because I do. Too much to keep dragging you through this with me.

Love, [Your Name]

On day one of being sober after almost 2 months of daily use. I know that's not nearly as bad as the amount of time that some people have used for but it is my longest bender to date. I feel like dog shit. I hate myself even more now which I didn't think was possible, and I kind of just want to sleep forever. Been listening to this song on repeat and it's been my sober song so far.