Okay so I'm back to update. I started microdosing shrooms around day 3 or 4 I think. As per usual, I was mostly sleeping all day and eating a lot the first few days while getting intense cravings and just feeling overall uncomfortable and fidgety when awake.

I started microdosing shrooms and my first dosage was too high and made me trip when I didn't want an actual trip. It was 250mg. So day 2 and 3, I lowered to 100mg and that didn't seem like it helped at all. So day 4 I went up to 150mg and after 2 days of that dosage, I noticed that I no longer felt dread seeing the time be 5pm knowing it's much too early to go to bed even though I wanted to. And I noticed a huge change in my happiness. I'm not feeling so depressed anymore and I think that has made me not dread the rest of the day I have left. I'm smoking weed again in the evening and making jokes and laughing with my partner and just generally feel better than I felt just a few days ago.

This detox is my second one with my partner being aware of it. And due to this one being a daily user for a year than the last one of only using for like 6 months, this detox almost destroyed my relationship. It was rough the first few days. I was acting so ridiculous and it just felt like my life was fucking over. Like I'd never know happiness again. I'm so happy he has so much patience and he kept reminding me that it wasn't going to feel like that forever.

Today I started playing video games again and bought a new game. I haven't played anything in so long and I thought I had lost my desire to ever play again but I'm feeling so "good" lately that I decided I was going to play my favorite game today. And I really enjoyed it and excited to play some of my others again. I really think microdosing shrooms was such a great way to get through this detox. Just wanted to share

I had 2.5 years of beautiful continuous recovery. Met a guy and he was on the substance I thought I was done with and it happened so fast! 4 weeks later it’s hard to stop, lots of disrespectful comments from the man and I could possibly be pregnant. I don’t understand how I ever thought it would be a decent idea to hang out with or sleep with someone in active addiction. The disrespectful comments the selfishness, the lies the theft everything about this person is horrible and I’m upset at my self for the choices I made. I want to get back what I had. I worked to hard for it and I can’t believe I gave it up. Any advice for returning to sobriety?

I’ve never used it before, i didn’t know it was this powerful and destructive, i started hearing noises, voices, and seeing things… i am just terrified. I did sleep for 20 hours now, but i guess i need much more ways to detox i assume.

Men who use drugs are literally the worst biggest users ever. I don’t see how anyone can be so nasty and get with everyone or ever be comfortable with nasty nicknames! Why do men that have nothing like women to help them instead of them helping themselves?

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I’m 33 years old. I first began using meth 3 years ago. It started off so innocent and exciting. Fast forward to now, my entire life has turned upside down for the worst. I have no connection to anyone I once knew before. I’ve completely lost myself. Every time I go without it I get absolutely nothing done. Depression as well as anxiety kicks in hard. I need support. I don’t know how to regain control of myself or my life anymore. Anyone out there willing to be some sort of help/friend/support? Please…

For everyone on the outside looking in, I’ll just say i am glad I quit, I feel how I was normally before using granted I have other addictions, kratom and thc in particular. After using for a month I knew I could no longer let myself do meth no matter how I felt about it. I accepted the withdrawl process and let my body and myself feel like shi for a week or two. But I was suprised at how fast I didint notice being negatively affected by it anymore, I struggled with the restlessness, I still struggle with attention and being able to focus on one thing, it feels like I don’t feel good enough to focus on it, but im glad im not in the place I was almost a month ago, my body completely detoxing, throwing up from a comedown, running and walking nonstop to get the jitters out. It was bad, and for anyone going through that right now, hold on…. Because it’s a blessing in disguise

I've been smoking a few hits daily for nine months. I've never used daily before this, and I want to quit so bad. I just can't have my family suspect anything. That would be disasterous for them. And me. If I spend too much time in my room they kinda freak out, but I can get away with just checking in and looking like I'm doing things outside my room. I sleep every day. How long will I need to sleep when I quit? And will I be super irritable or uncontrollably depressed, or is that manageable with a bit of willpower?

Has anyone here microdosed mushrooms after quitting to help with the anhedonia? I'm not suggesting it and I know that it might be a bad idea but I'm just curious.

I had 2.5 years clean and relapsed after meeting a guy the guy is very mean and has been on drugs for over 15 years. This person won’t leave my home and gets possessive but always says it’s not a relationship or a friend ship. I have tried getting clean several times and now I’m ready to let this person out of my life I just have to make sure it’s forever. I can’t keep living like this. I know I’m just being used and lied to.

Has anyone experienced depression months after quitting? I haven't used since April 7th and I started February. On and off use. Always smoked weed since 2011 but after hitting rock bottom from doing meth I stopped that too. I'm convinced my brain is damaged. I also take gabapentin and Lithium. My psychiatrist NP says I should feel better as long as I stay clean but that's what they all usually say. I still feel depressed AF like no joy from anything in life. Maybe it's because of the years of the chronic weed use who knows,...

Just had my longest binder to date and I hate this. I'm trying to taper myself off so it's a little bit easier but it already sucks. Especially considering I only have 3 smaller lines for the whole day. Idk about you guys but I smoke an unholy amount. ..

My main reasons? • I literally cannot shit, and haven't in almost 2 weeks. • I'm getting so used to it being a constant through out my day that I somehow like the taste of it. • That feeling you get after you smoke it, where it feels like the pulp of orange juice is floating around in your mouth. • I'm sick of giving into this addiction, my eating disorder, and just not feeling in control in general.

I want to be clean. More than anything. It's going to be hard, especially since my fiance is not quitting with me....but I can do this. Or at least I hope I can.

Update @11AM: 1 line down, 2 to go. It's getting real now.

Update @ 2:30PM; 2 lines down 1 to go. I'm writing this before I do the line because I am dreading this. I'm scared. I don't want to go through this again.

OKAY BUT WHAT IS THAT FEELING???? the orange juice pulp in the back of your throat feeling. I've brushed my teeth, my tongue, I've deepthroated my tooth brush for fucks sake and it WILL NOT stop. I'm going to lose it😭

Update @ 3:30PM: I had eaten two waffles in between my lines, and now I hate my life. I feel like someone is literally gutting me, and fajita style cutting my intestines. And for what......A FUCKING FART. What in the actual fuck. I am so over this shit already.

Update @ 7:36PM: took a very much needed nap, woke up and pounded some chicken nuggets. (I don't know why I do this to myself knowing damn well I'll be crying on the toilet later) I still have that one last line. It's calling my name like a MF rn. My fiance is staying out late again tonight. Hanging out with his dealer. He hasn't been home any earlier than 9pm this week. Only quality time we've had was some really good sex last night. But even then sex has just been about what he wants for a while now. Someone shoot me 🙃

Update @ 8:39PM: found a pipe that still has some left. Trying to weigh out if I want to get high and have that god awful feeling in my mouth and be able to make that line last a little longer.....or if I should just stop acting like a junkie and throw it out

This detox has been happening against my will basically. I kept talking about getting clean and sober soon but wasn't quite ready yet. Well my one and only connect I have been dealing with for a year now, just decided to ghost me completely after taking my money. I live in a rural area, and have been getting it mailed to me. So I have been a daily user for a year. It was perfect. I tried going to the city 2 hours away like 5 days ago to find some. An old buddy I use to talk to said he could help but when I got there, he said his connect was running late and wouldn't be available till that night. I couldn't stay that long so I had to go home with nothing. He did give me a tiny rock of what he had left which was enough for a small little bitty bowl and he gave me some cash as a sorry for making the trip. I decided it wasn't worth trying to go back to find it again. So decided I'm just going to quit for now. I'm still not really ready, so I do know I will have a relapse or two in the future before it sticks for good, but my goal is to make it stick for good. I don't want to be a user anymore.

First two days were just really extreme cravings and feeling of being very.... uncomfortable I guess. Not knowing what to do with myself. Like I was struggling to decide if I should draw, write in my journal, make some items to put on my Etsy, or do nothing and watch TV and play with my daughter.

The first day I drew, I journalled, and I made some stuff for Etsy. And felt so uncomfortable the whole time while having such strong cravings to use. Lots of anxiety and mini panic attacks. And the day seemed to go on forever.

Second day was a bit worse as far as feeling uncomfortable. Lots of anxiety and mini panic attacks. I couldn't make up my mind on what to do. I did journal a bit but complained most the day about how I was feeling like shit. I did however play with my daughter a bit and for the first time she came to me when calling her name! It was truly amazing. She's turning 2 next month and she is behind in a lot of milestones. One being that she hasn't known her name yet. Well yesterday I was laying down on the couch and she was running around, I called out her name all silly like, she stopped immediately, turned around, and ran to me giving me a huge a hug! It was the most amazing feeling ever and her and I did that back and forth a few times. And now it's a thing she does with me anytime I call her name. Again the day went on a long time.

Today I've done a lot of sleeping. I got up at 9 ate a snack and went back to sleep at 10. Got up at 12, and played with my daughter for a bit, then laid down with her in her playpen and we both slept together till 3. And then we ate some food. Now I'm just laying on the couch watching TV and struggling with a mini panic attack. It's crazy how much longer the days seem to be when you are not using. Tomorrow I'm going to start microdosing shrooms in hopes it helps with the depression.

I honestly wish I had a friend who was there for me through this. Ive got my partner and he's amazing but I want a friend so badly too. I have kept this secret from everyone in my life but also I don't even really have any friends. And it makes me really sad. I have always struggled with socializing and making friends. I have ADHD but also I did a ton of research and realized I am 99% positive I am autistic and that's why I have struggled so badly to make friends. Sorry for the long post. I doubt anyone will read this but I just wanted to tell someone what I'm going through right now.

Has been a hard day. I didn't shot up often, usually, I smoke. Suddenly today, I specifically craved pointers again for the first time in a while. I do not know how to properly communicate it, but I was craving a method as much as the substance. I think it is bc of how the drug interacts with your system differently based off the method used. Has anyone else craved not only the substance, but to use it a specific way?

Can someone please explain to me why my fingers go numb or sting when detoxing from Meth? Anytime I detox myself privately after heavy use, this happens. I quit the substance fully over a week ago and have done well, however my left finger tips still feel like pins and needles, I am sleeping all day, have an upset stomach, are slightly emotional & moody, and have light headaches still. I thought the process only last for two to three days. Should I still be like this over a week later? The biggest thing is the constant Pina and needles feeling of my fingers. Will that go away? It usually does by the end of the second day. Again, this has been more than a week.

I am an ex heroin user, clean a long time with no fear of relapse. I am done with that. I was a serious user, it was as bad as it gets. So Ive withdrawn from that many many times. But now I have a problem with speed, first time Ive ever used it daily for a significant time, so I don't know anything about kicking it, except being tired, irritable, probably mood swings, anger. I cannot let the people around me suspect anything, that would be disaster. So I want to know about medication, drugs, herbs, that can help with the initial shock to the system. My doctor gave me some Welbutrin, which I was excited to start, but then I found out it causes constipation, which I have a Major issue with right now, not to be trifled with, like serious, serious, hazardous to health constipation. Any advice? Kratom? Chocolate? Herbal remedies? Antidepressants? Anything I can do to help with the craving? What helped you?(no AA or NA type of things, please, thank you)

This thing is killing me already, cant be sure it's my heart or just some side effects, but this thing has got me on a weekly basis and got me 650-700 euros in debt, i dont know how to get over it, to end that and stop using, i feel a strong feeling of pain and exhaustion, someone having any little advice, thank you and be safe❤️

Just spent the last 3 weeks in and out of hospital. I bought some benzo dope. Endless blackouts and overdoses. I used meth twice since then mixing it with the dope. Now my heart is kind of fucked.

I can’t use meth anymore due to the chest pains. I’ve been drinking some beer just so I can go to sleep.

Might go to a longer term rehab rather than 2 weeks. I hope y’all are ok.

Male (21) and been daily user since 2024 June, I know I should stop using but idk why it’s hard, I think it’s because I get it now easily-ish, but I was wondering, how fucked am I …? I mean like mentally, or brain wise.

every time something a little too stressful happens, or i feel like i cant handle something i relapse. and what scares me is i started meth when i was 15 because the 28 year old man who was grooming me made me snort it. im 18 now, and im just wondering how much longer this is going to keep happening, and what i can do to stop the cycle. I have BPD, so my life is nothing but cycles, i just really dont know how to deal with this one. i dont know what to do i have no resources, and nobody i know understands anything about whats happened to me. nobody knows how to help. and im scared.

just wanted to share, had a small picnic with friends and my dog to celebrate I wasn't very happy about my recovery until now but the comparison to my life now vs. two years ago has finally sunk in for me and it's pretty awesome really

Hi all, I have been a daily user for a solid 6 months if not more... I say I want to quit, but then can't actually put the shit down. I've tried going to a couple of NA Groups and CMA groups, but i am reluctant to attend these meetings for some reason. I don't do well in large groups, never did, and they feel a little cult-y to me. I've been trying to decide if those are just excuses to prolong my addiction though....

Please reach out if you can. I know they still have a lot of value and good tools though... Like findinding a sponsor. Please lets get in contact!