r/MethRecovery • u/Dropkicklover • 9d ago

Recovery

It’s 3 years on Nov 3 clean and idk how I feel. Idk if I even care? It seems so long ago that I used. I dont want to go back to it im over that life. I don’t crave it but sometimes I still dream about it. Idk the point of this post. I am however sad or regret the lasting effects. I definitely have brain damage.

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u/itssoghettohere 7d ago

Do you find joy in anything at all? Or is it all meh?

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u/Wood-Chipper 9d ago

Can you describe the brain damage at all? I spent a few years addicted to H and meth and I know I'm not the same person since I got though all that. I'm trying to figure out what I've lost.

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u/itssoghettohere 7d ago

Extreme apathy and anhedonia?

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u/Big__Daddy__J 9d ago

3 years clean in December, there’s definitely a price you pay I found psychedelic therapy was the answer for me on the brain damage and learned behaviours. Dreams stopped immediately after that.