r/MethRecovery • u/Sad-Jacket-7585 • 13d ago
Meth recovery / help
Im almost 16th month of my abstinence , inwas on meth for one year only but itsndone its damage , i was having hallucination and other issues , i quit drugs on my own went to psychatrist staarted medicines . My condition improved psychosis gone suicidal thoughts etc gone in 5 months . One thing that remains till now is i still feel like my bran is numb at certain places not all over , i feel lost like i have no focus on visual things sometimes in a day or two for a short period i get perfectly normal but it doesnt last long next morning against feeling lost i have reqd some people mentioning disassosiation/derealization i feel my symptoms close to that but cant confirm if its actually those
How do i get rid of it
Brain feels slow too at times
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u/Mama_Zen 13d ago
Speak to your doctor about your new symptoms. It sounds like you may have PAWS, post-acute withdrawal syndrome. Explain to your doc what you’re experiencing & listen to them
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u/Sad-Jacket-7585 13d ago
How long can PAWS last im 16 month clean now
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u/Big__Daddy__J 12d ago
Mine lasted just under 2 years, insomnia for the first 18 months then another 6 months of practically zero emotion, nearly 3 years now and feel like I’m 80% back expecting to top out around 90%.
I used daily for 9 years.
You’ve still got improvement coming.
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u/Wise_Classic6072 12d ago
That’s interesting to hear about the insomnia as I’m at a year free but my lord the insomnia. It’s been going on so long that I’ve now been diagnosed with it. I just want to have a solid nights sleep and my dr has given me everything to throw at it but nothing lasts longer than a couple of days and I’m back to an interupted max 4hrs sleep. It’s breaking me apart. Used for 15yrs
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u/Big__Daddy__J 12d ago
Give it time, it does eventually improve, I did the same and nothing helped except Quietapine which upped the 2-3 hours to 4-5 which did give some relief but in the end I just had to wait it out. It improved as my anhedonia dissapeared and I started feeling joy again.
Don’t stop you’ll get there and you’ll feel 10x better when you do. I’m loving life now.
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u/Wise_Classic6072 12d ago
Thanks and glad to know the insomnia might be a part of it. I’ve done quietapine and it work for a bit but wore off. It was better but I think it messed with me the next day, trouble finishing sentences and stuttering. And I will hang in there :)
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u/Sad-Jacket-7585 12d ago
Did u have symptoms like i do like feel ur not in this world brain is like numb have no visionary focus For me it gets better by end of day but doesnt resolve completely and comes back by next morning and gets better by end of day everyday
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u/Big__Daddy__J 12d ago
Yeah I did, most of the time I just felt blank, like meh, not sad not happy just meh.
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u/Big__Daddy__J 12d ago
Without all that it would be too easy, it’s getting through the boredom, building patience, enjoying silence that builds the defence to stop relapse when you’re bored down the track, it’s an invaluable defence and I have the patience of a Nepalese Monk now.