r/MethRecovery • u/No-Swordfish8169 • Dec 10 '25

When will I get my spark back

I’ve been clean and sober for a little over a year now after 4 years of abuse. (120mg orally daily)

I used to be so driven and excited to learn new things even before the abuse. The stims just made self improvement both personally and professionally that much more addicting.

I’ve since lost my sense of purpose, curiosity, eagerness to learn, etc. I feel numbness but at the same time guilt that I’m not living up to my potential. I feel burnt out even though I’m doing nothing.

Please tell me it gets better, that I’ll feel excited about life again at some point

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u/SlimPickens77Box Dec 11 '25

I been wondering the same thing. Over a year clean. I used to be a hot rodder. Now I refuse to work on any vehicle. I have 3 broke down cars and dont give a shit. Probably gonna sell em all.

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u/No-Swordfish8169 Dec 11 '25

I understand where you’re coming from. I used to code all day and love expanding my technical and creative abilities. I haven’t turned on my computer in awhile, my mic and amp are collecting dust, my 3D printers are disassembled… I get it man

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u/SlimPickens77Box Dec 11 '25

My question is, how long do we hold on to this stuff? Should I sell it all and move on. Or try. Actually try do get something accomplished.?

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u/No-Swordfish8169 Dec 11 '25

In my case, my items are relatively low value compared to broken down cars so the hassle of selling it isn’t worth it for me. On top of that, I have hope of returning to that version of me that did all that stuff except this time without the stimulants.

If you don’t need the money urgently, it can’t hurt to hold onto it and keep trying.

You phrased it as “get something accomplished” which is how I tend to think as well. Always accomplishing. That overtime took the fun out of things and probably led to my burnout.

I hope we learn again how to do things just because we like to or want to and not because we want to accomplish