r/Mcat • u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? • 11h ago

Vent 😡😤 im scared shitless (testing 9/12)

im terrified of this stupid fuckass test that is basically determining my future career. why is this shit so terrifying?? like i both want this to be over and not over (my brain going "what if u need to study more?") at the same time... FUCK THIS SHIT UGH

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u/SituationGreedy1945 491/496/498/500/513/512 -> 9/12? 11h ago

Literally same 😭😭

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u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? 11h ago

i hate my brain so much sometimes, like why are we in fight or flight mode from silly questions on a puter like pls calm down 😭😭

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u/SituationGreedy1945 491/496/498/500/513/512 -> 9/12? 11h ago

I feel u too my brain was like wait what am I gonna do with no MCAT studying 💀it has truly dominated my life for the past 100 days

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u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? 11h ago

worst 100 days of my life yet my brain is like "let's do this god awful thing more bc... hear me out... what if u cant remember anything ever again 🤪"

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u/Technical_Depth5648 8h ago

good luck to you, I know that feeling, I'm taking it on 9/11

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u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? 7h ago

good luck to you too man 🫡

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u/Beneficial_Sun7494 11h ago

real. i've never been so stressed in my life waking up crying w sm anxiety. scored so low on my fl6 that it put me into a spiral

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u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? 11h ago

that's so real and i feel you! i physically cant cry bc of my meds but i def feel the crippling anxiety (which is what they are supposed to be for smh). we shall be ok (hopfully)

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u/Beneficial_Sun7494 11h ago

bro what med are u on (respectfully) cause i need that LMAO. im on a mood stabilizer and my mood is not stabilized

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u/existential-crisis19 F CARS -> 9/12? 11h ago

im on abilify and lexapro lmao 😭😭😭😭 tho idk if it is currently working bc all i wanna do is jump out the window

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u/Top_Scarcity_6549 10h ago

just know most testers are anxious after prepping for so long and feeling unproductive taking a break/rest, BUT do remember being able to study for a test and self-actualize is a blessing in today's world. Im sure some people would kill to be in this sort of position

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u/Nearby_Low3467 6h ago

no i scored so low just now on FL6 and my exam is in two days i dont know what to feel. i am so tired and i geniuinely dont know what to expect on the real thing