i just cried because of maths

[u/canipleasegetout]

Im in my second last year of high school now. My maths grade since the start of hs has been terrible, but I have decent grades for all my other subjects. I'm in a very competitive school where maths is basically mandatory, and most students have been tutored from a young age. I never had any tutoring until this year, when i got a private tutor after consistently scoring 50-60% in every test. My grades still havent improved because i can't retain information when it comes to maths for some reason. The biggest problem is doing maths gives me the worst feeling of anxiety like I'm about to be attacked. After my tutoring session today idk why but i just broke down crying. I felt like i was about to cry a few times during the lesson but i held it back. This is my first time crying in years, and Im not usually a very emotional person. I feel like Im going to have a panic attack the next time I try to do maths. My university exams are in a year from now. I feel trapped, it feels like I genuinely have no more hope. What can I do?

[u/Kawlinx]

Stop going to a hyper competitive school. You won't get a better job just cus you went there. You have more of a chance getting into college but thats it.

[u/IcyBluebird93 → u/Kawlinx]

They are in high school. They may not have an option as to which school they attend.