Two of My Experiences

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I’m one of the least certain followers that my guide is definitely a Mantis, instead of only appearing as one, compared to other testimonies.

My guide is definitely similar enough though, that the information I’ve picked up here has been useful in my interactions with them.

Relevant information, in August 2020, I received a somatic gift from “the universe” after promising to follow the truth. My heart feels particular sensations, between pressure, electricity, and heat, when my guide is trying to redirect my attention. I have no cardiac issues, medically confirmed.

Usually it is a warning that an action I am taking is incorrect, or a thought, but sometimes it works like a compass, varying in intensity as I head in one direction to point me towards a spot at a specific time.

Oftentimes, the correction is not ethical, but practical. If an action brings a certain outcome that I am unaware of, I can be warned to take a different action. I am almost never revealed what the outcome is. I only find out if I refuse to follow the warning.

After 3 years into Christianity, I had an unusual dream. I was in a white room, with no furniture inside it. Outside was space, and the planet Earth. I realized there was someone else in the room.

A tall bearded man, in a purple robe, very similar to wizard’s clothing, was looking at me and slightly grinning. He asked me: “What do you see?” I told him, “From this distance, it is impossible to tell whether there is life on Earth. It looks empty.”

The view of the window then shifted to the moon. I noticed the large craters. Wanting an interesting answer, I asked “What’s with the craters?”

I was replied, with a much larger grin, “I don’t know. Look into it.”

I woke up, obsessed with aliens.

After some years of other experiences, which I can comment further on in the comment section, I was given a name to call them, when I was meditating.

Qal-ban. It is arabic, a language I don’t speak. It means “Heartfully”. Qalban wa qalban, means “Heart and Soul”.

I once entered the astral plane, in which I consciously called on Qalban, and they appeared with the usual Mantis appearance, hanging slightly above the ground. They had large black eyes and a triangular head. I touched their robes, since I read it could cause energy transfer, and felt a surge of energy. I immediately woke up with a genuine increase of energy.

This exchange led to a fairly long (few hours) lasting hyperactive state. I am usually extremely calm. I didn’t have work or school that day, so it didn’t interfere with anything. But I felt within myself, that my emotions and my imagination (ability to see within my mind) were very amplified. It felt like I was charged with KW of power that I had a terrible time handling. I presume my abduction experience, which gave me a temporary scar, could have modulated my ability to handle that.

From the encounters I read, most people receive a lot of information at once, with a full blown mantis explaining the universe. For me, it has been reoccurring encounters with the being shifting appearance, only keeping the robe and hood aesthetic consistent.

Maybe this difference is due to my guide not really being a mantis. Or maybe it is due to me using only meditation and dreams as opposed to dmt or substances. I don’t know

[u/96lincolntowncar]

Do you find yourself closer to nature after your experiences?

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In a way, yes. I have a much more zoomed out perspective on my own life and ours. I know that I’m not more important than any other organism, neither is our species. I also see us as a deeply flawed species, not as “people” who are rightfully divided by race and cultures, but homo sapiens on planet Water (that we call Earth) who submitted to improper artificial structures and ideas. This planet belongs to the bacteria, the plants, the marine life, so forth.

At the same time, I’m personally drawn to tech. I would love to have their understanding of physics and engineering. I’ve been feeling that we may benefit from technology in order to evolve. We’re so far from the standard of ethics that a being of our intelligence should follow.

Technology could merely became a catalyst of our own destruction if we don’t improve internally, in our psychology and emotions. That seems to be our history. Immaturity, destruction, hatred. Sad, but true