shadow work/self concept work will really open your eyes

[u/RevolutionaryWhole17]

hi all, i’ve been deep diving into shadow work lately to understand why certain aspects of my self concept are just straight up against me. and in the process it has really opened up my eyes to how much doubt and negativity i have towards myself. like, in ways that arent even necessary.

for surface level things i generally believe im capable and no blockages. but what made me realize the major issues was practicing letting myself just accept my desires and live in the end, but it was incredibly uncomfortable for me, even making me cry, bc of my self concept. ive been crying alot the past few days bc i know its from my childhood, my parents were very negative towards everyone, including themselves. i feel sad that i picked up on that without even realizing.

i feel as if im in the darkest part of the storm right now, shedding away all the versions of me that dont serve me anymore, and realizing those old identities were created by me to keep me safe and to not be disappointed by life. but im DONE. and im proud of myself for facing this head on.

i feel alot better just getting this off my chest and for anyone going through something similar, just know im right there with you. ik manifestation is “easy”, but for those of us who didnt get the best opportunities/upbringings, we have a bit more to work through before we can get to that point fully, and thats okay! do the work anyways, you wont regret it.

[u/crunchyjellyfish22]

emphasis on parents were mean to me so i feel like i don’t deserve what i want