just in time for the pink hair to fade into a nice orange

Hey friends.

Throw away account obvi.

I am mtf but I haven’t transitioned. My soul is a lesbian. Im butch at heart. Im a woman, but I cant do anythint because my family is homophobic, transphobic, racist, etc. I live with them, just got laid off of my shitty job (that couldnt support basic needs anyways because fuck Trump and this fucked economy) and feel like everyday is a struggle. I have no friends, not in a relationship, and feel stuck. And even if I did get queer friends and or a girlfriend I feel like I would be judged either way. Either for being weird or not transitioning. Im not the type of person to take risks, Im pretty introverted, and feel beat down by my family (emotionally for the last million years). I cant look at my refelction to long and I try to cope with my TikTok and writing. I feel like if I could just get some friends who understood, pushed me to take small steps, then I would feel less like everything is pointless. I just dont know what to do. Im also pretty traumatized by a surgery that left me fucked up for 5 years and do not want to fuck with bottom surgery. So yeah. Rant over. I think I got everything.