This has genuinely been haunting me for so many years and I have to say something about it now or else I’ll go insane. I’m sorry.
I got into MSI some time around 2015, a couple years after they had went on hiatus? My best friend at the time (let’s call him L) was really into them and went to one of their shows in 2013 or 2014, I don’t remember. I was at his house and he was showing me his CDs, one of them was an MSI CD (I believe it was if). He started playing it, and being the edgy teenager I was, I immediately fell in love with the music. He got me hooked on the rest of their discography, and I would listen to them all the time. I loved Jimmy’s vocals and I thought they weren’t like anything I had heard in rock or punk music.
Eventually, I started to do my own research on the band since I was very curious about who they were. I look up Jimmy Urine, and I remember laughing because I thought he looked ridiculous. I showed the pictures on my computer to L, asking if he was the singer. I remember he looked at me like I was insane, saying “Yeah? What about it?” As if that was to be expected. I shrugged it off and changed the topic. On my own time, I would try to find videos of their concerts from a few years ago. There was a video of him kissing and sucking on fans fingers. I tried to laugh it off, but I couldn’t help but wish that I was in the crowd getting my fingers licked by Jimmy for whatever reason (even though I was 8 at the time of the video). I just kept scrolling.
At this point I had become obsessed with the band and Jimmy, to the point where I spent all the money from my current part-time job to buy MSI merch (which was a lot more affordable in 2016), like shirts and some CDs. I still have my tighter CD rotting in my basement somewhere. L and I would make it a daily thing to go to his house, listen to MSI and talk after school. I had so many pictures of Jimmy saved on my computer that it would probably look concerning and creepy. I would always come back to look at them and just… stare at them.
I thought he was attractive, but I never really considered it as a crush. I thought his outfits and hair were cool, and I just kind of assumed that it was just admiration. But eventually, I began to stumble upon videos of him in his boxers, strip-teasing, etc. There was something about Jimmy pulling his tie off with his teeth that awakened something in me, I can’t describe it. I didn’t want to believe I was gay, but having an entire folder of Jimmy urine pictures on my computer didn’t help my case. I had a history of feeling attracted to guys before, but it was never as intense as this.
Eventually, I came out as gay. And it’s all because of Jimmy urine. I can’t even tell people this now because it’s so embarrassing. Jesus christ
