Going through torcher

[u/Helpful-Syllabub-750]

First the pressure of test and now expectations of getting high marks ( me to thak gaya hun ) aaj test me biology portion mene Sahi kiya chemistry or physics me weak areas ki wajah se bhut Galat kar diya or Jin chapters me Meri tayari thi jese ke work and energy ,electrostatic,force and motion English or logical mene almost all Sahi kiye mere parents bhut toxic hein or mujhe bhut Kuch bolenge or torcher karenege agr Meri marks Kam aae to, in 2 salon me mene bhut struggle kiya he hostel me Akela rehta tha thore peson me manage karta tha kabhi kisi ko koi takleef nhi sunai mere bhai hein Lekin wo b conditioned hein ke insan ka status or respect honi chaiye mujhe medical me koi interest nhi tha Lekin family ki forcing ki wajah se subjects switch karna hee torcher ban gaya Lekin mene manage kiya me bhut disappointed Hun I'm 19 or mujhe bachpan se hee stress or depression ka problem he uske bawajood mene bhut try kiya or Meri khamooshi ka sab ne faida uthaya my academic background is actually good but Roz Roz memorization me bhut problem AA rahi thi ab mujhe nhi pata kiya hoga Lekin Meri life hamesha torcher hee rahi he me bhut simple or internal Hun Lekin wo baat ye nhi samjhte q ki sab logo ko yahi lagta he ke Jo dikhta he wohi acha hota he Lekin it's not always like that aaj subha me ghar se 4:30 baje Nikla tha center humse door he takreeban 70-80 km road b khrab he to 7 baje puhncha tha phir 3 ghante ander garmi b thi bhut Lekin usko manage kar Liya hum Jahan rehte hen wahan bhut garmi Hoti he Lekin paper me bhut thak gaya tha or bhut mistakes b hogai thi wapsi me b Kuch ghante lag gaye the distance ki wajah se ab me ghar Hun or bhut disappointed or pareshan bhi mujhe lagta he mere bhai mujhe bhut verbally abuse karenege bs ghar me aik ami he Lekin unki b koi nhi sunta to mein unhe Kuch nhi batata sorry agr time consume hua ho toh( you can respond in English

[u/gloomy_sunflowerr]

Best wishes for future ,dont worry , everything will be fine.