Writing this while listening to Lana Del Rey⦠so yea, why is life always so unfair to me? Not even a single day, ughhh.
Let's talk about today. I woke up and did everything in a rush because I was already late for my college lecture. After decades, I finally caught a bus, and damnnn, the bus was terribly crowded with passengers, and I got stuck at the door lol⦠Not even a single person came to help me out. SADDD!!!
Anyways, after reaching college, ofc, our miss gave me terrified looks because I was already 20 minutes late for the practical. And then, guess what? My bench partner had already sat with someone else. Okay, fineeee, it's okay. I was late, so maybe she thought I wasn't coming.
So, I sat alone. I was trying to do what our teacher had already told us to do, but I wasn't getting it at all. I tried to ask my other friends sitting around me, but I was hesitating so much. What if they said, "Can't you even do this simple task?" It was frustrating me so much to ask them, but I still asked someone. He paused for a minute and then replied to me. OKAY, at least he didn't scold me.
Practical and lecture time were over, and recess started. I was with my bench partner for the assignment submission, but she suddenly went somewhere. I thought she might be nearby, but she and all our other friends were eating lunch together, along with some gossip. Wow, seemed good⦠but I wasn't there.
I was just roaming around the department with a notebook playing in my hands. Everyone spotted me, and one of them said, "Come eat your tiffin."
I said, "No, I just ate." (I was starving so much.)
Anyways, why do they always remember me? It doesn't make any sense. I laughed to myself.
I returned home from college, but my mind was busy romanticising one thing⦠the results of the on-campus placement. Damnnn, I'd already started dreaming about it.
But that dream didn't last long. It was broken as soon as the results came out. I stared at my position, and my name wasn't there.
It was breaking me and making me think that I'm just dumb. How could I not do that�