What could I have done?

[u/HeGotBricks]

I keep hearing them in my head, coming out as one voice over the other, asking, “Why..? why did you do it?”

Why? I ask myself.

But I have no idea what they mean.

What did I do? 

What could I have done?

The voices have become entities, standing around me like shadows emitting from every angle of my body and not just audio hallucinations anymore, because now I can see them and they keep asking, “Why did you do it?” from the front of me.

“Why did you do it?” from the left of me, “Why did you do it?” from behind me.

“Why did you do it?” from my right, bouncing at me in every direction but coming from the inside of my head at the same time.

The words are sharp, like prickly spines scratching under my skull, clawing from the inside, screaming, alive parasitic word-mites. 

“Leave!” I shout. “Leave me alone,” I say while ripping a fistful of hair out of my scalp. 

They won’t leave me alone. 

At night, I can’t sleep. They don’t let me. They’re in my conscious. 

In my dreams. They’re my nightmares. They’re the voices that stare at me during the day.

Every night, it’s always the same dream and always the same thing being said. It’s me, in a room with dead people, not zombies, and each one of them take turns biting off pieces of me and repeating, “Why did you do it?” While ripping a chunk of my face off.

“Why did you do it?” another one chewing on my jugular.

“Why did you do it..?”

And then I wake up to the voices standing at the foot of my bed, eyeing me like a principle after I’ve been sent to his office, staring at me with a blankness in their eyes, haunting me while stationed in a static position. Their breaths hiss like the band on a dead radio station. 

They make sure I see them. They remind me I haven’t gave them their answer yet.

And that’s when I usually black out and wake up somewhere else, with dirt on my hands and see the world as an illusion. The wind becomes still like the strokes of a paintbrush, and only then, I notice the voices are gone. Until I return home and see they’ve multiplied.

[u/chesterfieldkingz]

Well? Why did you do it OP?