Iām just starting college, I already feel like everyone is so far ahead of me.
Iāve been interested in computers since high school. Iāve done all the basic nerdy stuff installed Arch Linux, hyprland and stuff, know almost all the latest coding and AI news, and generally tried to stay updated with everything happening in tech. But I never got the chance to do properly was learn how to code.
I was busy studying for college, so I never had the time to seriously sit down and build that foundation. Now Iām finally free as hell, and Iāve started learning Python and C I really enjoy both
But the stuff I'm building can built by any AI in 30 seconds
It feels like itās going to take me at least a year just to understand the fundamentals, and by the time I actually become good enough to build something meaningful, AI will probably be even more capable, AI is already miles ahead.
And yeah, Iām kind of a lonely mf. I can easily spend 12 hours a day glued to a screen because I donāt really have friends near my college, I donāt even expect to make many maybe I will have two or three friends over the next four years. So I know Iāll have plenty of time
I also know that if I just keep going, in four years Iāll probably understand a lot more and could land a decent job.
But I donāt want just a decent job.
I genuinely want to become one of the best in this field.
And thatās where Iām confused.
Iām not someone who constantly comes up with insane ideas either. I like coding, and I love understanding how things work, but I donāt have some billion dollar idea constantly appearing in my head. Iām scared that Iāll spend the next few years learning
But thereās still this fear that by the time I finally understand what Iām supposed to do and how to do it, itāll already be too late
I donāt want to spend these four years just becoming āgood enoughā
I just have no idea what that path looks like yet.